{"id":2020,"date":"2013-03-23T23:09:06","date_gmt":"2013-03-24T07:09:06","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.wordpress.com\/?p=2018"},"modified":"2013-06-17T19:45:24","modified_gmt":"2013-06-17T19:45:24","slug":"reborn-every-night-at-half-hour-call-at-sea-03192013","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=2020","title":{"rendered":"Reborn Every Night, at Half Hour Call \u2013 At Sea \u2013 [03\/19\/2013]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"MMTgun350x427\"<\/a>It\u2019s an honour and a joy to be in show business
\nI feel that spot light hit me and I\u2019m gone
\nAt the last curtain call
\nI\u2019m the envy of all, and I know the show must go on..<\/i><\/p>\n

At the heart of everything, always, I remain a show person. It\u2019s so much a part of who I am that I can\u2019t shake it, I wouldn\u2019t even if I could \u2013 but it\u2019s practically a part of my DNA. Maybe once a season, if I\u2019m lucky and I get selected,\u00a0 I get to play with it\u2026and people look at me as if they\u2019re seeing me for the first time. As if to say,<\/p>\n

So this is what you really do<\/i><\/p>\n

Yep. Always.<\/p>\n

The murder mysteries that are staged on the World Cruise are far from Shakespeare. There\u2019s a prompt script on a music stand at the front of the room, and we use hand-held mics. The whole thing is done in fun, and the guests adore it. But for me? It\u2019s a chance \u2013 for one shiney shiney \u2013 to go back to who I was, well, who I am. It\u2019s highly likely that due to a management change in the upcoming seasons we won\u2019t be doing them anymore, and if that is the case, I\u2019m sure I won\u2019t be the only one who misses the experience. Though I suspect I\u2019ll miss it for different reasons than some of the others.<\/p>\n

Anyway, so it was that tonight found me sitting cross-legged in front of my cabin mirror, in a purple cocktail dress and matching shoes, applying equally purple eye make-up (Actually, I always wear purple eye make-up, though it\u2019s seldom noticed), with my hair in violet adorned pigtails that were curled carefully into ringlets. The final touch? Wings. Believe it or not, I was actually playing a fairy tonight. A southern<\/i> fairy. A few days ago the CD came up to me at doors for the evening show and asked briskly whether or not I had a southern accent.<\/p>\n

Well I can have sugar, what\u2019d y\u2019all need one for?<\/i><\/p>\n

It had been a while since I used my southern belle. She doesn\u2019t come out often, and I haven\u2019t had to use the voice since I did my season with Play With Your Food what seems like a very long time ago. I\u2019d forgotten just how much it can scrape on your throat after a few hours! I was definitely making a point of drinking a lot of water over the course of the night, especially near the end, and I was very grateful for the hot tea.<\/p>\n

Somehow this evening I must have been able to pull off the innocent thing fairly well, because I didn\u2019t end up being voted the guilty party. A rarity for me as the last two times I\u2019ve participated in a murder mystery I\u2019ve been found guilty by a landslide! I was told later that I had what could have been a difficult table, but I managed to keep them decently engaged \u2013 and still managed to eat something! This is really a first because usually with dinner theatre I don\u2019t have time to eat.<\/p>\n

When the guilty party had been led away and we all took our bows, our CD gathered us in to congratulate us on a job well done, the HM seconded the accolades, and we all drifted in different directions for the night.<\/p>\n

For me though, it\u2019s not about the praise, or the script, or anything. That\u2019s not what makes nights like this special to me. What\u2019s special to me is the fact that I\u2019m sitting here afterwards with my hair brushed out into what I can only think of as \u2018post-show curls\u2019, and that all too familiar and yet somehow so often distant adrenaline pulsing through my system and keeping me awake \u2013 holding the exhaustion at bay just for a few more minutes. And if you were to look at me you\u2019d see the sparkle behind my eyes, that has nothing to do with the make-up.<\/p>\n

I know I should get in the shower, should wash off the make-up and rinse out the curls. But I\u2019ve been sleeping with my hair in show waves and waking up with mascara in the corner of my eyes since I was a toddler, I can\u2019t bring myself to change that now. I would miss it.<\/p>\n

I remember once when my best friend came to see me in a show. Nothing special, just an amdram production of Evita<\/i>. This is a girl who knows me probably better than anyone save my parents, who had seen me at my best and my worst but had never seen me perform. After the show was over she came up to me in the lobby and said simply<\/p>\n

So that\u2019s what you really look like is it kid?<\/i><\/p>\n

That<\/i> is who I am. It\u2019s who I always am. I\u2019ve had people accuse me of letting things hold me back from it, I\u2019ve had people accuse me of not wanting it enough because I don\u2019t drop everything and move to New York or back to London. I have news for those people: \u2018waitressing in New York\u2019 does not make you any less of a show person, or any less of a performer, just because you aren\u2019t one of the handful who is in the right place at the right time with the right amount of money for the right person, doesn\u2019t mean you aren\u2019t real. There are a thousand people just like me, temporarily forced to do something else because the world doesn\u2019t have room for them right now \u2013 but it is never the less still who we are. I remain a creature of greasepaint, character shoes and spotlights.<\/p>\n

There is, after all, a special kind of aura \u2018round a \u2018show person\u2019<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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