{"id":3514,"date":"2014-12-04T01:56:49","date_gmt":"2014-12-04T09:56:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=3514"},"modified":"2014-12-04T01:56:49","modified_gmt":"2014-12-04T09:56:49","slug":"life-is-a-at-sea-12022014","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=3514","title":{"rendered":"Life Is A \u2026 – At Sea \u2013 [12\/02\/2014]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"dancing-with-closed-eyes-cindy-singleton\"<\/a>When I was a kid, I didn\u2019t scream or yell, I sang. If I was angry, or hurting, or confused, I would go upstairs to the attic and drop the door shut, and turn up whatever soundtrack was my current obsession for that month (it was usually Scarlet Pimpernel) and I would sing. And when I came down, I would feel better\u2026<\/p>\n

These days, when I need it, I still have a few\u2026.the machine doesn\u2019t have Scarlet Pimpernel of course, but it does have my standard\u2026<\/p>\n

People don\u2019t realize that Cabaret isn\u2019t actually a happy song. It\u2019s a very sad song. It\u2019s Sally Bowles\u2019 complete defiance of a world turned against her, a world that is turning against itself. Her statement that to hell with you all, I\u2019m staying the way I am despite the fact that you seem intent on knocking me down. There are multiple reasons for this, all integral to the storyline of the actual play, and normally\u2026that\u2019s not how I sing it. I normally sing it traditionally, playing the coy, working the obvious jokes inherit in the lyrics, selling it for the moral of positivity it has become. I don\u2019t sing it as a challenge.<\/p>\n

Often\u2026<\/p>\n

But once in a very great while, I need to pull in the original context, and when I wrap my fingers around that microphone, I\u2019m not there\u2026I\u2019m not where I want to be either\u2026but I\u2019m not there. I\u2019m somewhere else. And it becomes my<\/em> defiance to the world.<\/p>\n

And when those times happen, there is no audience, there is no energy loop, there is no nothing. And I put that ever so tiny hitch between the words \u201chappiest\u201d and \u201ccorpse\u201d in the verse about Elsie from Chelsea, which changes the emphasis from the traditional laugh off to making it obvious that Sallie is thinking about her own mortality, that she<\/em> is Elsie, or so easily could be\u2026if things hadn\u2019t changed.<\/p>\n

So when I need it, I don\u2019t just sing\u2026I become Sallie.<\/p>\n

And for whatever reason (and there are a few) tonight I needed it. And for the first time in a long time, didn\u2019t see the jaws drop and I didn\u2019t hear the applause\u2026though they were there, in droves, buffeting against my own personal bubble like the wings of birds. I’m still getting compliments on the performance, but I didn’t hear it if that makes any sense…<\/p>\n

But I did walk off that floor feeling better\u2026<\/p>\n

And after all, life is<\/em> just a Cabaret<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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