{"id":3973,"date":"2015-09-24T14:06:51","date_gmt":"2015-09-24T21:06:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=3973"},"modified":"2015-09-24T14:06:51","modified_gmt":"2015-09-24T21:06:51","slug":"penny-still-spinning-at-sea-09232015","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=3973","title":{"rendered":"Penny Still Spinning\u2026. \u2013 At Sea \u2013 [09\/23\/2015]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"glassdesk1\"<\/a>I feel like I\u2019m going to throw up<\/em><\/p>\n

Now you are NOT going to be sick!<\/em><\/p>\n

Not if I faint first!<\/em><\/p>\n

~ Victor Victoria<\/em><\/p>\n

Or<\/p>\n

Just like a boxer in a title fight
\nYou\u2019ve got to walk in that ring all alone
\nYou\u2019re not the only one to make mistakes
\nBut they\u2019re the only thing that you can truly call your own
\n~ Billy Joel, Second Wind<\/em><\/p>\n

I do not do so great with auditions, or interviews of any kind. Especially important ones, and there\u2019s a lot potentially riding on this interview that I have in three and a half hours. I wish there was a way I could just skip the next few hours and have it be over and done with.<\/p>\n

I just never know how to prepare for these things. You\u2019re supposed to be all saavy and know what to ask and what to say \u2026heck you\u2019re supposed to know what you want! I have no idea what I want! Every time I think I\u2019ve made up my mind, it changes itself again, or decides it\u2019s really not sure.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m better with auditions than I am with interviews really. Auditions well, they\u2019re not you. I mean yes, you\u2019re up on that stage prostrating yourself in front of the director and begging for a job, but it\u2019s also whatever character your monologue is, whatever tone your song is\u2026you have stuff to hide behind. You have hours and days and years of training to hide behind. With a normal job interview? All you have is yourself. And sometimes I\u2019m not that good a shield to hide myself behind.<\/p>\n

Of course, in the hours leading up to<\/em> the interview, I still have to do my actual<\/em> job, which is proving to be somewhat difficult as I\u2019m about as focused as a golden retriever puppy. Which is to say not very much. I think I have butterflies in my stomach the size of dragons\u2026or semi-trucks\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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