{"id":4072,"date":"2015-12-19T00:45:28","date_gmt":"2015-12-19T08:45:28","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=4072"},"modified":"2015-12-19T00:45:28","modified_gmt":"2015-12-19T08:45:28","slug":"no-day-but-victoria-12182015","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=4072","title":{"rendered":"No Day But – Victoria – [12\/18\/2015]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"9d57361d809e2f55740e7a69eca1df01-plxovh\"There is no future
\nThere is no past
\nThank god this moment\u2019s not the last
\nThere\u2019s only us, there\u2019s only this
\nForget regret, or life is yours to miss
\nNo other road
\nNo other way
\nNo day but today<\/em><\/p>\n

As we go into the New Year, I find that 2015 is still packing some punches in the lesson department.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve been having a harder time lately than I like to admit. Nothing has felt quite on kilter, nothing has felt quite on the rails; I\u2019ve not known why. I still don\u2019t completely know why. I have often felt somewhat conflicted within myself, I am always trying to balance everyone else, but that\u2019s not a selfless desire: having those close to me in balance makes my life easier. I try to fix others because it makes it easier to fix myself. But the thing is, you can\u2019t fix the world, you can\u2019t mediate it, and as much as you love it, you can\u2019t always protect it, not even from itself.<\/p>\n

We always have a choice in life, we can keep everything guarded to ourselves and hope that all the strands we are trying to hold together will somehow magically know how to repair themselves, we can try and fix everything and everyone until we get emotional whiplash from trying to hold everything steady\u2026or, we can trust someone enough to tell them what\u2019s going on. And that can be the hardest thing in the world; what if they don\u2019t get it, what if they laugh in your face, what if they call you a drama queen. Sometimes just telling someone that you need help with the burden is the bravest choice you can ever make. Sometimes the hardest thing you can say is<\/p>\n

Please, please I need your help<\/em><\/p>\n

And sometimes you have to tell someone that you can\u2019t fix it yourself anymore, that you\u2019ve tried your best, but the fight either isn\u2019t yours or isn\u2019t one you can win, and you either pull yourself off the battlefield, or you find a companion at arms to help you lift that sword.<\/p>\n

Life isn\u2019t about the past, it isn\u2019t even about the future, it\u2019s about what you do with this very moment that you have now. How you choose to face or not face your problems, how you choose to deal or not deal with your misunderstandings and your pain and your grief and confusion, and your happiness and joy and self-sacrifice. No one can know anything unless you tell them, no one is that kind of physic, if someone wounds you, or confuses you, or insults you, tell them so, and if someone tells you the same in kind, accept that with dignity, fix the issue, address the dragon, and move on\u2026<\/p>\n

You cannot control what anyone else thinks of you, or what anyone else thinks of anybody. You cannot control who loves who or who accepts who, but you can control how you react, you can control what you choose. You can control which battles you think are worth facing, and no one else can make that choice for you\u2026<\/p>\n

But please, whoever you are, never be afraid to just ask for help, because that doesn\u2019t make you weak, that makes you strong.<\/p>\n

And there is, after all, no better day than today\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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