{"id":4194,"date":"2016-04-07T12:03:47","date_gmt":"2016-04-07T19:03:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=4194"},"modified":"2016-04-07T12:03:47","modified_gmt":"2016-04-07T19:03:47","slug":"glowing-at-sea-04082016","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=4194","title":{"rendered":"Glowing \u2013 At Sea \u2013 [04\/08\/2016]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"looking_out_to_the_horizon_by_seeminglyperfectt\"~Would you so soon put out the light that shines within me? ~ A Christmas Carol<\/em><\/p>\n

I am a firm believer that everyone has a light inside of them. Everyone has something they can give to the world; and the world needs that light, because as is so often the case these are dark times in which we live.<\/p>\n

I lost my light for a while. A long while actually. I won\u2019t go into how, or why, there were a variety of reasons, many personal, some not. Everyone\u2019s light flickers once in a while.<\/p>\n

It came to a point \u2013 not so very long ago \u2013 when I looked in the mirror and I saw someone looking back at me that I didn\u2019t know. She was tired, wane, and her eyes had no light. I knew the light was in there somewhere, but I couldn\u2019t find her\u2026and I realized at that moment that I was at a crossroads. A crossroads we all reach at some point\u2026although I am convinced that many of us don\u2019t notice that it has come and gone, or that it has gone and returned.<\/p>\n

Looking at those tired eyes in the mirror, I realized I had a choice: I could stay where I was, and keep feeling the gears of my own life, and everyone else\u2019s life that touched mine, grind down a candlesnuffer on my light\u2026or I could change my circumstance.<\/p>\n

And I got lucky, the right door opened, and I was brave enough (And terrified enough) to walk through it. And slowly but surely, change came\u2026<\/p>\n

Until now, not so very long after that moment, I look in the mirror and I start to see her again. The woman I thought I\u2019d lost, with her spontaneity and her hard-won battle scars that she still bears with a smile, and that little glimmer that says she might just might<\/em> be up to the best kind of mischief. Morever, I\u2019m starting to see the smile.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m starting to see my light.<\/p>\n

And this time, now that I am conscious of that crossroads, I refuse to let anyone \u2013 or anything \u2013 snuff me out again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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