{"id":4209,"date":"2016-04-28T04:52:06","date_gmt":"2016-04-28T11:52:06","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=4209"},"modified":"2016-04-28T04:53:28","modified_gmt":"2016-04-28T11:53:28","slug":"thanks-for-the-memories-at-sea-04282016","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=4209","title":{"rendered":"Thanks for the Memories \u2013 At Sea \u2013 [04\/28\/2016]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Horizon1\"Oh well, it was swell while it lasted\u2026
\nWe did have fun\u2026and hey, no harm done<\/em><\/p>\n

And strictly entre nous, darling how are you?
\nAnd how are all the little dreams that never did come true?<\/em><\/p>\n

Awfully glad I met you, cheerio and toodle-loo
\nAnd \u2026thank you so much<\/em><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Earlier this week, a symbol of someone I had been passed forever out of my life. That sounds dramatic, but it\u2019s not meant to be, it\u2019s just the truth. The symbol in question didn\u2019t belong to me, not even in the slightest bit, \u00a0I was just still attached to it in a vaguely distant way.\u00a0 I may or may not have shed a tear when I found out it was gone\u2026<\/p>\n

But not the kind of tears you might have expected\u2026<\/p>\n

I no longer mourn what was. What was, well, it wasn\u2019t meant to be, whatever the circumstance, for whatever the reason.\u00a0 My heart doesn\u2019t jump at the memories anymore, and they no longer cut\u2026I have finally reached that point, where I can look at what I was, at who I was, at who we were (whomever the we may be), and appreciate the warmth of it, the right of it, even if it was only for a little while. I shed a tear for the memories that that symbol came with, for the fact that I would never be able to go back to that time in my life, that that was it, it was really over, I really had gone and grown up. But then I wonder if I would really want to. It was more that it brought back good things, brought back smiles, and I missed them\u2026but no, they were not sad tears. Not anymore.<\/p>\n

Things change, people change. Heaven knows I changed. Clinging to symbols does nothing; it was a very dear friend who taught me that\u2026<\/p>\n

I have finally come to a point in my life where my feet are stable on the balance board, and I could look out at the world and say \u201cno, this is who I am, this is what I want, and if you do not want the same things as me, and are not content with who I am\u2026well then, thanks but no thanks.\u201d<\/p>\n

If I had never been through those times in my life that broke my heart, my heart would not have become strong\u2026I would not have gained the friends that have no stayed with me for years, no matter how distant we have become, I would not be me.<\/p>\n

So too all of my ghosts, past and present\u2026thanks, for reminding me\u2026of everything, of all of it\u2026thanks for the memories\u2026<\/p>\n

Thanks, for helping me become me\u2026<\/p>\n

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