{"id":425,"date":"2011-08-31T12:32:29","date_gmt":"2011-08-31T19:32:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.wordpress.com\/?p=425"},"modified":"2011-08-31T12:32:29","modified_gmt":"2011-08-31T19:32:29","slug":"made-for-leaving-juneau-08312011","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=425","title":{"rendered":"Made For Leaving – [Juneau 08\/31\/2011]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u201cShe said: \u2018you\u2019re a rambler-man, you ain\u2019t never gonna change. You\u2019ve got a gypsy\u2019s soul to blame and you were made for leavin\u2019\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

I look out the window on nights like this, and I see my reflection staring back at me in the darkness and I wonder what it\u2019s like to have a home that doesn\u2019t move. \u00a0What it\u2019s like to stay in one place, with one person, with one situation, to work a job that doesn\u2019t take me from place to place and time to time. From self to self.<\/p>\n

I wonder if that\u2019s what I want.<\/p>\n

I realize that it isn\u2019t.<\/p>\n

People often ask when I caught the travel bug. It wasn\u2019t as young as when I got bitten by show business \u2013that happened before I was even born – \u00a0no I remember very clearly when I realized that I just wanted to pack up and go, to see what was on the next side of the next hill and not look back. I was 26 and I had just moved to England (the first time). I took a weekend trip to Bath, and I stayed at a hostel with not much more than the clothes on my back. I was walking across the bridge (listening to \u2018step in time\u2019 from the Broadway version of Mary Poppins, why I remember that I don\u2019t know, but I can\u2019t hear that song without instantly being walking down that street again) \u2013and I had this sudden urge to just keep walking. To not get on the train back to college the next day. To just up and leave, and see if anyone would notice \u2013 not knowing where I wanted to end up, or how I would get there \u2013 just wanting to go.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m sure one day it will wear off. One day I know I\u2019ll want the white picket fence and the two and a half children (as an aside, how does one have a half a child? How does that statistic even work?) \u2013 but I don\u2019t know when. There are still things to see, still places to go, still hills I haven\u2019t explored the other side of.<\/p>\n

One day maybe I\u2019ll have seen everything…<\/p>\n

Until then, I guess I remain made for leaving.<\/p>\n

Bright blessings,<\/p>\n

Shaughnessy<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u201cShe said: \u2018you\u2019re a rambler-man, you ain\u2019t never gonna change. You\u2019ve got a gypsy\u2019s soul to blame and you were made for leavin\u2019\u201d I look out the window on nights like this, and I see my reflection staring back at … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[3,4,17],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-425","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-alaska","category-below-the-waterline","category-reflections-below-the-waterline"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p3GtNE-6R","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/425","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=425"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/425\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=425"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=425"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=425"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}