{"id":4352,"date":"2016-08-30T23:58:30","date_gmt":"2016-08-31T06:58:30","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=4352"},"modified":"2016-08-30T23:58:30","modified_gmt":"2016-08-31T06:58:30","slug":"the-inbetween-victoria-08302016","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=4352","title":{"rendered":"The Inbetween \u2013 Victoria – [08\/30\/2016]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"2-alice-longs-for-beautiful-garden-blue-cotton-tea-dress\"Why am I here? What is it that I am seeking? I knew a moment ago, but I have forgotten ~ The Last Unicorn<\/em><\/p>\n

The week at either end is the strangest, always. The last week of contract and the last week at home. In both circumstances you suddenly feel like you don\u2019t belong any place, like you\u2019re steadfastly being drawn away from one life into another. Preparing yourself, shutting yourself off, setting yourself off.<\/p>\n

And yet you\u2019re more active in that week, you do more at the same time you do less. You throw yourself into projects, and packing and last minute shopping. There are what feels like dozens of appointments you should have done earlier and now have to miraculously cram into the next four days. You make crazy decisions and then spend whole days doing nothing except staring mindlessly at a movie you\u2019ve seen a million times before. You, in some ways, forget who you are, and what you\u2019re supposed to be doing, at the same time that you know precisely where you\u2019re going.<\/p>\n

You try and take the you that you are, and fit yourself into the mold of the work-you, and while it\u2019s the same person, it\u2019s also not the same person, and you have that almost instant panic of \u201cwait, do I still know how to do this? What if I don\u2019t still know how to do this?\u201d<\/p>\n

How do I reconcile the windblown hippie-girl who was zipping down the interstate with Carrie Underwood blaring on the radio mere weeks ago, or the child-woman who\u2019s been hiding in her cave for the last month while she rebuilt herself from the crossroads up (and still totally hasn\u2019t finished that rebuilding, but is getting there)\u2026.with the woman who\u2019s going to be standing in a business suit in front of dozens of people who expect them to somehow teach them something<\/em>?<\/p>\n

The world between worlds. Or as CS Lewis put it, the wood<\/em> between worlds \u2013 \u201cthings don\u2019t happen there, the trees just keep growing that\u2019s all\u201d<\/p>\n

It\u2019s a strange place to be, in that metaphorical wood.<\/p>\n

Anyone who has\u00a0 job that travels will understand I suppose.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s not a bad place to be \u2013 far from it \u2013 just\u2026strange.<\/p>\n

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