{"id":5138,"date":"2018-10-05T17:00:11","date_gmt":"2018-10-06T00:00:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=5138"},"modified":"2018-10-05T17:00:11","modified_gmt":"2018-10-06T00:00:11","slug":"crossing-the-river-to-36-victoria-bc-10-05-2018","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=5138","title":{"rendered":"Crossing the River \u2026.to 36 \u2013 Victoria, BC \u2013 [10\/05\/2018]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"When I grow up, I\u2019ll be stable
\nWhen I grow up I\u2019ll turn the tables
\nWhen I grow up..
\nWhen I grow up\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

~ Garbage~<\/p>\n

Or<\/p>\n

Even though I know the river is wide
\nI go down every evening and I stand at the shore
\nI try to cross to the opposite side
\nSo I can finally find what I\u2019ve been looking for
\n~ Billy Joel<\/em><\/p>\n

I\u2019m coming to the conclusion that no one ever \u2018grows up\u2019, there is no end goal, there\u2019s no time in your life when you can sit down and go \u201cokay, I\u2019m adult now,\u2026mission accomplished\u201d. That\u2019s not how this works. Whoever said that life is about the journey had it beyond right.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s about the journey. It\u2019s about the steps you make, the choices you choose, and the paths you walk. And if you don\u2019t enjoy that journey \u2013 or at least parts of it, I don\u2019t know that you have many people to blame but yourself.<\/p>\n

35\u2026started out difficult. Continued challenging and ended\u2026fascinating. My life is still nowhere what I expected it to be. I\u2019m still dealing with that. But that doesn\u2019t mean that I\u2019m not really very happy with the life that I have ended up with.<\/p>\n

This year, I saw things I never thought I would, met a whole batch of fascinating new people. I started a new hobby that \u2013 much as I don\u2019t pursue it as passionately as I would like \u2013 I really truly love. I opened up a bit more and started to distrust a little less. I got weaker, I got stronger. I stuck to my plans, I held to my deadlines. I learned just how important it is to be true to myself.\u00a0 I reminded myself that I can make my own choices and share my own decisions, but that no one else can make them for me.<\/p>\n

I walked the great wall and meditated with dragons in caves in Japan. And I bought happy meals purely because I wanted the toy. I walked down Main Street USA in Japan, Hong Kong and Florida\u2026and dragged the man I love giggling into the twisting turns of Diagon Alley. I even was treated to seeing Dorothy fly over the rainbow in\u2026of all places\u2026Australia.<\/p>\n

\u2026and somehow ended up with this really pretty sparkly thing on my left ring finger. I still don\u2019t know exactly how that happened (I\u2019m half convinced that Amras is crazy). I don\u2019t know how any of it happened.<\/p>\n

There have been downsides too, every year has downsides. Some of them have been minor, some major enough to plow me over. But I guess the point is that I always get back up. That\u2019s really the trick isn\u2019t it? Keep getting back up.<\/p>\n

I may not know what I\u2019m looking for. But I know what I\u2019ve found. And what I\u2019ve found is much more valuable than almost anything else on earth. Doesn\u2019t mean I\u2019ll stop looking, because that\u2019s what life is about right? Always searching for the next story.<\/p>\n

So, here\u2019s to 35, and all the lessons, adventures and craziness it brought\u2026and welcome to 36\u2026<\/p>\n

Welcome to the next chapter\u2026and oh the places we’ll go.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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