{"id":5363,"date":"2019-06-01T08:40:46","date_gmt":"2019-06-01T15:40:46","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=5363"},"modified":"2019-06-01T08:40:46","modified_gmt":"2019-06-01T15:40:46","slug":"on-the-cusp-of-change-victoria-bc-06-01-837am","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=5363","title":{"rendered":"On the Cusp of Change \u2013 Victoria, BC \u2013 [06\/01 \u2013 8:37am]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"Oh my god oh my god you guys!
\nGranted not a complete surprise
\nBut if there ever was a perfect couple
\nThis one qualifies!!
\n\u2018Cause we love you guys<\/p>\n

And now I\u2019ve found my love
\n(My God)
\nI\u2019ve found my way to love
\n(You Guys!)
\nI\u2019ve finally found my prize!
\n<\/em>
\nI would love to say that there is an odd sense of calm that has come over me on this last morning as a single woman, that I am one of those perfectly calm and collected brides that has everything together. But that would be lying. I nearly had to talk myself out of bed this morning, and ultimately my Mum came up and sat on the edge of the bed next to me and reminded me that this is a choice, and that if I really wanted or needed to, I could choose to say no\u2026even now.<\/p>\n

And I found myself saying that no, this isn\u2019t doubt, it isn\u2019t cold feet, I\u2019m not unsure\u2026this is just\u2026this is the biggest thing I have ever done.<\/em><\/p>\n

And people laugh at that and they say that it\u2019s crazy because hey, I\u2019ve travelled the world, I moved to England alone to follow a crazy dream, I\u2019ve ridden elephants and technically speaking I\u2019ve even performed on a west end stage\u2026<\/p>\n

Surely all of that is bigger than a little tiny thing like a wedding\u2026right?<\/p>\n

No.<\/p>\n

You see, all those things really just effected me \u2013 though granted England effected my family \u2013 they were all my independent decisions, they tied me to no one, and my decision whether or not to go through with them did not change the course of anyone\u2019s life except mine.<\/p>\n

What\u2019s happening this afternoon? This is the ultimate show. This one is forever, this one\u2026changes everything. So no, I\u2019m not in doubt, but I am<\/em> nervous\u2026gut-wrenchingly, horribly nervous\u2026I have butterflies in my stomach that are the size of tetradactylies. I am going from something I adore to something I adore\u2026I am adding a whole new entry to the \u201clist of things that could be said to make up who I am\u201d and that is bigger<\/em> than any measly elephant.<\/p>\n

So no, there is no calm. There are moments of calm, followed by moments of insane excitement\u2026followed by hurricanes of tears and feeling like I just want to build a pillow fort and hide inside of it\u2026<\/p>\n

But the sun is shining, the bridesmaids are on call, and in a few hours my hair and make-up team will be knocking on the door (like hell I\u2019m doing my own make up for this<\/em> opening night)\u2026and about the only thing I have to do myself is fasten on my earrings, slip a silver sixpence into my left shoe\u2026and maybe see if I can make a veil for AJ\u2026<\/p>\n

For I really am about to marry in June\u2026.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Oh my god oh my god you guys! Granted not a complete surprise But if there ever was a perfect couple This one qualifies!! \u2018Cause we love you guys And now I\u2019ve found my love (My God) I\u2019ve found my … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[4,105],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5363","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-below-the-waterline","category-wedding-bells"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p3GtNE-1ov","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5363","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5363"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5363\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5365,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5363\/revisions\/5365"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5363"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5363"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5363"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}