{"id":5790,"date":"2020-07-15T21:46:26","date_gmt":"2020-07-16T04:46:26","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=5790"},"modified":"2020-07-15T21:46:26","modified_gmt":"2020-07-16T04:46:26","slug":"my-old-girl-07-15-2020","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=5790","title":{"rendered":"My Old Girl \u2013 [07\/15\/2020]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"And why do they always say
\nDon\u2019t look back?
\n[\u2026] Don\u2019t hold on to the past
\nWell that\u2019s too much to ask<\/em><\/p>\n

9 years ago I walked shaking up the gangway of the flagship, excited and terrified all at once. I didn\u2019t know what I was getting into. I didn\u2019t know that myself and that ship were about to enter a nearly decade long relationship that would have a massive impact on my life .I didn\u2019t even know that walking up that particular gangway<\/em> with only two contracts under my belt was practically unheard of at that time.<\/p>\n

I was just a kid, who figured that going around the world? Sounded pretty amazing.<\/p>\n

Who would have known then that I would keep coming back\u2026and back\u2026and back\u2026.<\/p>\n

5 times, 5 times I circled the world on that ship. 5 times over the horizon and back again. She took me places that I never thought I would reach. She sailed me to Jordan, to Rome, to the Holy Land, through China and to lemurs in Madagascar. She was what I came home to soaking wet in Tokyo on my 30th<\/sup> birthday, and it was her phone lines I nearly wore out when my family was in trouble.<\/p>\n

I built almost her entire library from the ground up. I knew every inch of her except for the engine room and the bridge.<\/p>\n

I both loved the flagship and hated her. There were many times I felt like I was very<\/em> good for her, but she wasn\u2019t good for me. That said, she was\u2026in some ways\u2026home. Of all the ships in the fleet, she had a massive part of my heart. I figured she always would. I always thought \u2013 before the world erupted into chaos \u2013 that one day I would go back to the flagship. My separation from her was always\u2026temporary\u2026<\/p>\n

Except, this afternoon I found out that it wasn\u2019t.<\/p>\n

Many many companies are selling many many ships to try and get out of this terrible situation. The flagship\u2026my<\/em> ship\u2026 is on the list; she\u2019ll be leaving the fleet in the fall. Before I ever get a chance to walk her decks again.<\/p>\n

No ship\u2019s reign lasts forever; but when I got the news this afternoon my heart broke more than a little. It never ever occurred to me that it would come to this.<\/p>\n

This evening Amras and I stood and toasted the ocean and thanked her \u2013 and the others that are leaving \u2013 for the memories, good and bad\u2026they will be missed.<\/p>\n

And a little part of my heart\u2026will go with her, wherever she ends up.<\/p>\n

Goodbye old girl\u2026<\/p>\n

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