{"id":5828,"date":"2020-09-27T22:29:31","date_gmt":"2020-09-28T05:29:31","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=5828"},"modified":"2020-11-21T22:28:54","modified_gmt":"2020-11-22T06:28:54","slug":"dragging-rollercoasters-and-overcome-obstacles-victoria-bc-09-27-2020","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=5828","title":{"rendered":"Dragging Rollercoasters and Overcome Obstacles \u2013 Victoria, BC \u2013 [09\/27\/2020]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"Growing up, my Mum used to tell me a story about an investment banker who found herself up at 3am every night baking cookies, because baking was the only thing that genuinely made her happy and helped her relax. Ultimately, she realized that was what she should<\/em> be doing all along\u2026and promptly quit her job at the bank and became a full time professional baker.<\/p>\n

The moral of the story being: take the time to do what makes you happy, and it will ultimately be a huge stride to putting yourself on the right path for you\u2026<\/p>\n

Do what makes you happy\u2026<\/p>\n

Well, I\u2019m still sort of figuring that one out\u2026it\u2019s been a bit difficult lately. But I have landed on a few <\/em>things.<\/p>\n

Surprisingly, cooking seems to be one of them. Thing one? The pasties turned out *amazingly*. I actually squealed with delight when I took them out of the oven! The first batch was a little tough (I over kneaded the dough) but the second was pretty much perfect. Now I can just play with seasoning and fillings and things. I make a batch at the beginning of the week and that\u2019s lunches mostly sorted until the following weekend. Very hand, and I\u2019m surprisingly proud of myself. I never ever<\/em> thought I would be picking up the knack of cooking\u2026<\/p>\n

Let alone that I would figure out that I really, actually, seem to enjoy it\u2026<\/p>\n

But really, it\u2019s about time isn\u2019t it?<\/p>\n

I will admit that things have not been precisely the\u2026easiest\u2026for me since we returned home. At first we were just so glad to be<\/em> home that we really didn\u2019t think of anything else, and time felt like it was in some strange kind of holding pattern. Then when time finally felt like it had started to move<\/em> again, it decided to thunder forward with the speed of an oncoming locomotive. And suddenly, my 39th<\/sup> birthday is around the corner, and December is looming behind that and I\u2019m at the end of my \u201c6 month emergency plan\u201d. I\u2019m more than a little bit\u2026terrified. And doing my best not to be terrified which is usually good for at least one meltdown a month\u2026but hey, no one is perfect right?<\/p>\n

Because honestly, who in the whole world really actually thought that this was going to last this long? I mean if I\u2019m truly straight up with myself, I\u2019ll admit that I was harbouring the thought that it would be \u2013 if not over \u2013 at least on its way to resolution by September. It never really occurred<\/em> to me that the entire world \u2013 let alone just my comparatively small industry \u2013 would be shut down for this long. And I\u2019m not really 100% sure I was ready to deal with the unavoidable reality that this is\u2026what normal looks like for the foreseeable future. I have no real clue<\/em> what\u2019s going to happen after Christmas, and if I stare that in the face for too long, it grows fangs and snaps my head off \u2013 which in turn makes me a pretty spikey person to be around. I\u2019ve issued multiple apologies to pretty much everyone around me: Amras, my parents, Silver, my coworkers\u2026my only real excuse is I\u2019ve gone from a life that did not require a great deal of hands on responsibility to a life that requires a massive<\/em> amount of responsibility in a very short period of time, and I have medium-length bouts of not dealing with the emotional whiplash very well at all.<\/p>\n

So\u2026there\u2019s that\u2026<\/p>\n

But as the people around me who care about me deeply keep reminding me: depression can either control you or you can control it. So, to the best of my ability I\u2019m at least trying to keep the Dragons down to a dull roar\u2026<\/p>\n

Feeding other people does seem to help with that!<\/p>\n

As does gardening\u2026and bike riding, and finally \u2013 after several years of saying \u201cI really do want to do that some day\u201d \u2013 starting my handicrafts business. The idea of creating something that can bring someone else joy, really really<\/em> helps\u2026and I need to remember to make more time for that. For multiple reasons, not the least of which is that the motion of a needle and thread still go a long way to calming down my rather overly active brainwaves\u2026<\/p>\n

Life right now is a rollercaster\u2026or \u2026a rollercoaster combined with some kind of bizarre drag race where we can\u2019t even see the white checkered flag. But at the very least, there seem to be a decent amount of pit stops along the way\u2026<\/p>\n

And, as always, I say please \u2013 be kind. Always be kind. Most especially now and most especially to yourself.<\/p>\n

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