{"id":5907,"date":"2021-12-09T23:59:21","date_gmt":"2021-12-10T07:59:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=5907"},"modified":"2021-12-09T23:59:21","modified_gmt":"2021-12-10T07:59:21","slug":"midnight-musings-12-09-2021","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=5907","title":{"rendered":"Midnight Musings \u2013 [12\/09\/2021]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"It was not the<\/u> beginning. There are no beginnings or endings in the turning of the wheel of time\u2026but it was a<\/u> beginning.<\/em><\/p>\n

It occurs to me that I haven\u2019t had a lot to say lately. I realized a few days ago that I haven\u2019t written a single word since September, and that\u2019s very unusual for me\u2026because I\u2019m usually much more of a chatterbox. \u00a0Part of me wonders if I should just leave it at that and let the ending of my ship career mean the ending of my blogging as well.<\/p>\n

But the thing is it\u2019s not that I have nothing to write about. It\u2019s just that the things I have to write about now are so\u2026different than they were, that I suppose I fear that I won\u2019t live up to the expectations of the few readers I have left. I mean, stories about puppies and tour guiding don\u2019t really have the same ring as \u201chey guys I road a vintage car through Havana today!\u201d<\/p>\n

It was three years ago\u2026Cuba I mean\u2026but I digress, you probably get my point.<\/p>\n

It doesn\u2019t feel like three years ago. None of it feels like three years ago.<\/p>\n

But I am still here. Right where I\u2019m supposed to be. Just a lot more quiet these days. And I was right, to live\u2026to live has proved an awfully big adventure. And not always an easy one, but then \u2026adventures never are are they?<\/p>\n

I won\u2019t lie, this hasn\u2019t been an easy year. There\u2019s been an awful lot straining and pulling and tearing at everyone I know, myself included, and it certainly doesn\u2019t help that we\u2019re still seeing the world from behind a facemask \u2013 but I am also trying to realize that it has hardly been all<\/em> bad. There is a pretty bright light at the end of my own personal tunnel , though I don\u2019t want to risk jinxing it just yet. I hope to have news on it soon.<\/p>\n

In other daily events, my clinic is decorating for Christmas, and we\u2019ve had to get creative since we have basically no budget. But if there is one thing that living on ships has taught me, it\u2019s that you can bring an amazing amount of joy with very little money. Right now I am printing out photographs of the animals that come to see us and turning them into ornaments for the tree. I wish I could claim the idea was mine but it came from a much more creative soul than I: my mother (hey, I give credit where credit is due).<\/p>\n

It\u2019s shaping up to be another odd Christmas. Money is tight and there won\u2019t be a lot under the tree \u2013 if anything \u2013 but more and more as I get older I\u2019m realizing that it truly isn\u2019t<\/em> about that. I give people things because I like seeing the looks on their faces, I like making them happy, but more and more I realize that there\u2019s nothing I desperately need in return. I\u2019ve got everything I really need, I\u2019ve got people who love me, and a roof over my head, and a family that is\u2026the most awesome family I could ever have lucked into (or chosen). I have a husband who\u2019s my closest friend, who often looks after me much better than I look after myself and \u2013 despite all my bizarre broken quirks \u2013 loves me. And I\u2019ve have somehow lucked into coworkers that I fit in with (seriously, after years and years bouncing from contract to contract I\u2019ve found my roots at a little tiny vet clinic with a staff of 7\u2026and I am fiercely<\/em> protective of it). There is even talk of that longed for dog in a perhaps-not-so-distant future.<\/p>\n

2021 has been a hard year. In too many ways to list. Twisty, turny, emotional rollercoaster ride hard\u2026but it\u2019s gone a long way to making me realize just what\u2019s important. For me? My quiet little corner of the world is<\/em> my dolly in the corner, and all I want is for it to be safe and protected.<\/p>\n

And that\u2019s the best Christmas present anyone could get me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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