{"id":5913,"date":"2022-02-08T22:18:44","date_gmt":"2022-02-09T06:18:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=5913"},"modified":"2022-02-08T22:18:44","modified_gmt":"2022-02-09T06:18:44","slug":"odd-anniversaries-victoria-bc-02-08-2022","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=5913","title":{"rendered":"Odd Anniversaries \u2013 Victoria, BC \u2013 [02\/08\/2022]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"I was never really part of it. It was just something that I did okay? ~ A League of their Own<\/em><\/p>\n

Has it really been almost two years?<\/p>\n

The memories that are starting to crop up on my social media feed are starting to show the comments of \u201chey are you guys okay out there? Scary news with all this virus stuff\u201d<\/p>\n

Two years ago we still thought everything was going to be fine, that we were well out of harms way. I mean heck, we were in Antarctica! I was perfecting my attempts at taking pictures of seals!<\/p>\n

It just\u2026never occurred to any of us.<\/p>\n

Back by Christmas, it was all supposed to be \u201cback\u201d by Christmas.<\/p>\n

Now the line I used to work for barely even has an entertainment program anymore\u2026and the job I used to love is gone like the wind.<\/p>\n

How did two years go so\u2026fast?<\/p>\n

But in reality? Sure, I miss it. I\u2019ll always miss it. But the honest truth is that I was ready to leave. I didn\u2019t expect to leave under those circumstances<\/em> (I mean hell, who did?), but I was ready to leave. The job had gotten to the point where it was starting to feel unbalanced, where it was starting to be something I did just for the money and no longer for the joy. There were a lot of sleepless nights and a lot of tears at the airport, I was no longer excited to fly\u2026it was just something that I did.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m never going to not mourn for what was. You can\u2019t have a life like we did for as long as we did and not<\/em> miss it. In some ways, it still feels like I\u2019m missing a limb. I\u2019ll see a travel commercial and go \u201coh yeah I\u2019ve\u2026been there\u201d and there\u2019s always always<\/em> going to be some bittersweet to that. I miss when it was<\/em> joyful, and I\u2019d be foolish if I tried to pretend that wasn\u2019t the case. Because I can\u2019t lie, I was<\/em> part of it, it was a part of me. And I\u2019m sure that even years from now, there will be days when I still shed a tear for it..<\/p>\n

But as time keeps trundling forward, I try and make myself look at the memories for the amazing things that they are; even if there a little bit\u2026painful sometimes. 11 years, and I saw more in just one of those years than most people see in a lifetime. I climbed the Great Wall of China, canoed down the Amazon, tasted rum in Hawaii, saw belly dancers in the Arabian Desert\u2026there was so \u2026so much. Most people\u2026barely even step outside their backyard\u2026or are lucky enough to see even one of those places.<\/p>\n

In a few short months, I\u2019ll be turning forty. I have to stare that in the face and admit that it scares me more than a little. That\u2019s a big milestone number\u2026and somehow there\u2019s an awful lot of baggage that comes with it.<\/p>\n

But some of that baggage? Yes, some of it is battle-scars, some of it is pain, but a lot of it? A lot of it is souvenirs from a really amazing first part of my life.<\/p>\n

Of the days I thought would never end\u2026and of the days that are yet to come.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I was never really part of it. It was just something that I did okay? ~ A League of their Own Has it really been almost two years? The memories that are starting to crop up on my social media … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[111,106,81,21],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5913","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-life-in-the-times-of-covid","category-sadie","category-transitions","category-vacation"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p3GtNE-1xn","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5913","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5913"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5913\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5914,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5913\/revisions\/5914"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5913"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5913"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5913"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}