{"id":5966,"date":"2026-08-10T16:55:45","date_gmt":"2026-08-10T23:55:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=5966"},"modified":"2026-08-10T16:55:45","modified_gmt":"2026-08-10T23:55:45","slug":"nobody-told-you-the-best-way-to-steer-08-10-2026","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=5966","title":{"rendered":"Nobody Told You The Best Way to Steer \u2013 [08\/10\/2026]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>It\u2019s about one moment
\nThat moment you think you know where you stand
\nAnd in that one moment
\nThe things that you\u2019re sure of slip from your hand
\nAnd you got one second, to try to be clear
\nTo try to stand tall
\nBut nothing’s the same when the wind starts to blow<\/em><\/p>\n

They say the universe doesn\u2019t hand you anything you can\u2019t handle. That anything that doesn\u2019t kill you makes you stronger. That it\u2019s a test of character etc etc.<\/p>\n

But I have to ask myself, when does the test STOP? When do things finally settle down and you can finally say \u201cokay, this is where I\u2019m supposed to be this is where I belong\u201d?. Because it seems that every time I think I\u2019ve gotten there\u2026something happens, and it\u2019s almost always totally out of my control.<\/p>\n

Things have been\u2026up and down since I left the waves. I don\u2019t regret leaving. Not really. But there was a certain rhythm out there that made things easy in some ways. You knew where you stood in the chain of command, you knew what was expected of you, and it seldom really changed. It was\u2026comfortably predictable at the same time as it was a never end adventure. Life outside the ocean\u2019s bubble? It\u2019s not like that, and sometimes I wonder if I ever really completely fit back into life on land\u2026or if I\u2019ve always been a bit of a mermaid out of water at heart.<\/p>\n

But in the long run, no, I don\u2019t regret it. But I do miss \u2026a lot about it.<\/p>\n

When I left ships I ultimately went to vet med. And I really thought that I\u2019d found where I was supposed to be. There is a sense of fulfillment in this industry that I just haven\u2019t found anywhere else. But the clinic I was working for closed, and I got moved to our much much bigger sister hospital that suddenly felt<\/em> corporate. All of my training went on hold, I started to feel like I was never going to belong there, and worse, I was with a team that\u2026let\u2019s just say didn\u2019t have my back. My best friend and coworker retired\u2026my beloved Proudfoot crossed the Rainbow Bridge (though he sent my sweet little Verity instead and I’d be lost without her) and I was\u2026very lost and alone. So I left. In one of the hardest and possibility bravest things I\u2019ve done, I walked out the door of a guaranteed job and went to a different clinic altogether, one that was smaller, independent\u2026that felt like\u2026my old one had.<\/p>\n

And I was really really<\/em> happy there.<\/p>\n

For eight months.<\/p>\n

Until a few days ago they called me into the office, and the owner, nearly crying, told me that they were letting me go.<\/p>\n

I was not given a reason.<\/p>\n

And just like that\u2026the surface cracked\u2026and I\u2019m dumped into a new world\u2026again.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve been steadily, fully employed since I was 19. I don\u2019t know<\/em> how to be unemployed. I have never held a job for less than 5 years, never. Navigating the EI system and going through applications that go with it are \u2026totally foreign to me. I\u2019m not used to having time on my hands. I\u2019m not used to having time off.<\/p>\n

And I\u2019m having a hard time not blaming myself for all of this\u2026even though I know deep down that it was probably nothing to do with me.<\/p>\n

Just\u2026a mermaid out of water\u2026<\/p>\n

Again\u2026<\/p>\n

And oh you’re suddenly a stranger, in some completely different land
\nAnd you thought you knew, but you didn’t have a clue
\nThat the surface sometimes cracks,
\nTo reveal the tracks, to a new world<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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