{"id":620,"date":"2011-11-14T15:33:39","date_gmt":"2011-11-14T06:33:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.wordpress.com\/?p=620"},"modified":"2013-06-17T18:23:06","modified_gmt":"2013-06-17T18:23:06","slug":"dont-cry-out-loud-at-sea-11122011","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bloodinyoursaltwater.com\/?p=620","title":{"rendered":"Don\u2019t Cry Out Loud \u2013 At Sea \u2013 [11\/12\/2011]"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>Baby found that when they pulled that big top down<\/em>
\n They left behind her dreams among the litter<\/em>
\n And the different sort of love she thought she\u2019d found<\/em>
\n There was nothing left but sawdust and some glitter<\/em>
\n But baby can\u2019t be broken\u2026\u2019cause you see<\/em>
\n She had the finest teacher, that was me\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

And I told her<\/em>
\n Don\u2019t cry out loud\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

There has been a lot of emotional stress running through the department right now, a lot of bruised hearts, some battered, some broken, some just strained from too many hours of separation from those we care about. For my part, two of my very closest friends \u2013 the two I consider family in all but blood \u2013 are on ships themselves right now, when I do hear from them its rarely and usually not all that much in the way of detail. One I\u2019ve not heard \u00a0from in a month.<\/p>\n

At any rate, with all of the widespread emotional rollercoasters that have been going on, when Stryker invited me to sing for the Cast n\u2019 Crew Review in the piano bar, I only had to think briefly about what I was going to use.\u00a0 At the time, I didn\u2019t know that I was only going to have time for one number \u2013 because work prevented me from attending the whole show \u2013 but I knew what was first on my list. I sat with the rest of the performers in the tiny booth behind the piano enclosure, waiting to see who would be called next (there wasn\u2019t a set program), and when it was my turn, I gave the title to Stryker, and he looked askance at me for a second \u2013 having fully expected my signature Cabaret<\/em>,<\/p>\n

You need the words?<\/em><\/p>\n

Nah, I got it<\/em><\/p>\n

And I settled myself on the stool, and looked out at a much bigger sea of faces than was normally in the piano bar. Normally it\u2019s me, Stryker , and maybe fifteen or twenty people, we all know each other. But this show had been prepped and promoted for nearly the whole voyage, and \u2013 as it turned out \u2013 it had also been announced after the main stage show. Something none of us knew until the time came. I suspect they were worried that had they told us before hand, we would have gotten cold feet. The place was packed. It was the first time in a long time it had been just me, a microphone, and an audience that substantial.<\/p>\n

For everyone in that room that had ever suffered a bruised, battered, or broken heart, and even for those of them who had done the breaking themselves, I took a deep breath, and eased into Don\u2019t Cry Out Loud<\/em>.<\/p>\n

The last time I sang the song for a proper audience of any kind (not counting the time I sang it in the piano bar last week when I still had a cold and there were only five people there), was when I sang it in front of the judging panel to be considered for placement on Canadian Idol. That time, I was too nervous, and the atmosphere was too negative to accomplish anything with it. This time, with my friends in the booth behind me and a sympathetic audience in front of me, was totally different.<\/p>\n

After the show was finished, I had two conversations that I will probably remember for a while. One was from one of the cast members, who came to the edge of the stage and said<\/p>\n

You sounded amazing, I love hearing you sing, you never ever cease to surprise everyone. <\/em><\/p>\n

And, on a more comical note, one was from my co-team member, who came up and looked at me, and blinked for a few seconds and then said<\/p>\n

I totally thought you were going to be this\u2026high\u2026airy\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

Soprano? Yeah\u2026I get that a lot\u2026hey Campbell!<\/em><\/p>\n

Yeah?<\/em><\/p>\n

Sam thought I was going to be a top-sop<\/em><\/p>\n

Oh yeah, everyone thinks that about Shaughnessy, you expect her to be this little mouse and she comes out with a belt\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n

One of these days I really am going to do \u2018Think of Me\u2019 just because everyone expects it.<\/em><\/p>\n

But neither of those are really the things that stick with me. The thing that sticks with me, is looking out into the audience at one point, and seeing our very oldest patron, the de-facto leader of our entire passenger group, who is stubborn and hardheaded and won\u2019t hesitate to give anyone from the captain on down several pieces of her mind \u2013 looking at me, with this\u2026expression that I can\u2019t even describe. And she looked at me, and never said a word, but just smiled\u2026and nodded\u2026<\/p>\n

And it felt for all the world like I was singing to my Gran\u2026<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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