At Last I See The Light – At Sea – [02/23/2014]

136575_3_600There have been a lot of times this season that I’ve thought I saw light at the end of the tunnel and it’s turned out to be the 7:35 express train hurtling towards me, leaving me pressed up against the tunnel wall panting for breath.

However, Mercury appears to be slowly swinging out of retrograde – and bit by bit I find myself able to walk along those shaded train tracks, carefully, one foot precariously balanced in front of the other…towards what I’m pretty sure is daylight rather than a headlamp.

I’m not going to dive in headfirst and say that things are perfect – perfection is not really an achievable goal in any context and striving for it usually only ends in tears – but things are definitely starting to right themselves bit by bit. While it’s true that this is coming up on what is normally the mid-season slump, I still have faith that we are going to continue moving forward.

Through sheer and total force of will we have very nearly exterminated the gremlins onboard. There are still a few in stubborn residence, but the issues that they are causing are either always going to be there, or they’re minor enough to be dealt with in short order, mopped up when the tiger team returns to their home base.

As a result, we’re able to start clambering out of the hole we’ve found ourselves in as far as stress goes for the past few weeks. It’s a long and steady climb, and the walls of that pit are pretty steep, every so often we lose our footing and scrabble for a hold, occasionally slipping downwards a bit, before regaining our steadiness and starting to climb steadily upwards again. Healing – especially mentally – is not always an easy process, but it’s nothing that we’ve not been through before. Personally, I’m looking forward to feeling like myself again. Gradually, I’m starting to see in colour again – and if you don’t quite get what that means, don’t worry, there are probably only a few people who will.

Just trust me when I say it’s definitely a good thing….

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