I am extraordinary
If you ever get to know me
I am extraordinary
I am just your ordinary
Average every day, sane psycho
Super goddess…
What does it mean to “know” someone?
The guests see me through a sheer of “work ethic”, knowing me as a usually chipper, though occasionally world-weary, woman with a name tag; my management teams know me as a usually professional though often solitary work-horse, my ‘real life’ friends know me as all kinds of different things – heartbreaker, heart healer, lone wolf, alpha wolf, the list goes on…like light through a prism.
And then, there are my readers…
A lot of people make the mistake of thinking they know me in life, because they ‘know’ me on the page. This is, sadly, not true. Not only because how often can anyone truly say they really know anyone else, but because what I choose to share on the page is merely a single shining fragment of what goes on in my head, in my heart, in my whole completely unconventional (and I rather like it that way) life. These pages are like looking at the top of the ocean, there is so so much beneath the surface. These words are carefully crafted, selected and honed for public judgement and consumption, but they are also crafted in layers; interpreted one way by passing acquaintances, another by family, another by very dear friends, and yet another by the very closest members of my little tight knit Pack – of all of those layers, perhaps only two or three individuals can lay claim to really “knowing” me…they know who they are.
It’s true; I live a very public life…though I am hardly a celebrity. I make the choice of putting certain aspects of that life into a medium that is – at best – semi-public (most are, to this day, very respectful of my continuing requests that my reader-base remain relatively controlled). I made that choice because I am in a position where my career has led me to some fantastic adventures and I take a true amount of joy in sharing a tiny tiny fragment of those crazy journeying’s with those that are close to me and – occasionally – with the wider world. But that’s just it; it’s a fragment, not the whole. Not even close to the whole. While I cannot – and would never want to – stop people from having opinions, or sadly from making judgements (this is the internet after all, and it is a mostly free world), and always welcome a healthy debate, there is a boundary that needs to be acknowledged and respected.
Despite the existence of these pages I am really a very private person, and the things I choose not to share, the things I choose not to discuss, are very dear to me – probably because so much of the rest of me is on display (that really, simply goes with the nature of working in hospitality and theatre alike), and I do not take kindly to them being poked at. I play certain cards close to my chest for a reason…I beg of all of you, please do not force my hand.