I should be packing, considering that I leave in under a week; I should really be packing, and reviewing my notes – because at this point I have very little idea what I’m supposed to be teaching (not to mention that I’m going to have at least one person from the computer company that actually runs the workshop onboard)…there are many things I should be doing
But I’m not doing any of them…instead, I’m rediscovering the local library ; and finally got myself a new library card. I’m throwing myself into the newest murder mystery by JD Robb, and thinking what fantasy novels I should recommend for their collection (they admit themselves that the selection in the central branch is sad, as they have no librarian who is specialized in that area), and working overtime on my embroidery pattern, and enjoy coffee dates in the sunshine. And renewing old friendships, and even re-establishing myself with my old online My Little Pony collecting community.
I’m looking up recipes for apple muffins and apple candy and apple bread (er, we had a large crop of apples from our two trees this season)..
In short, I am contentedly denying that in a few weeks’ time my two months’ vacation will come to an end, always too fast.
And…learning a lot about myself.
I do tend to learn a lot, when I’m in my cave, when I’m hiding in my books and journals.
Such as – it doesn’t matter what other people think of the choices in your life, because they’re your choices. No one else can make those choices for you, and no one can force you to make them. Don’t put someone else’s needs above your own, no matter how much you love them, don’t make yourself weaker for the sake of someone else’s strength; but don’t be so strong as to break.
And now, I’m done with hiding, your life is your own, stand for it, stand by it…as I shall do my best to stand by mine.
Although, I will still continue to lose myself in whatever book falls into my hands…at least for another few weeks.