For Christmas this past year, Amras got me a practice amp and a cable. That was in January – it has been sitting under my loveseat collecting dust ever since. I have been absolutely terrified to plug in. This has been for a variety of reason – top in my head is that I know I’m not exactly a great player (er…one and a half songs does not a guitar player make) and I was genuinely nervous to hear what I actually sound like. Second in my mind was, if I could hear me, so could everyone else in the house.
Gah!
But the amp wasn’t doing any good just sitting there collecting dust, and I realized I’m never going to learn if I don’t actually get up a little bit of courage and test my boundaries.
So this morning I tuned Strange up, and unfurled the cable, and plugged in.
And I…wasn’t horrible.
I mean, I’m not fantastic or anything, but I’m definitely…not horrible.
And – much to my incredible surprise – I was actually able to play something for my Mum without breaking my fingers or making an outrageous amount of mistakes.
This…is really pretty amazing for me. It never occurred to me that I would actually be able to get somewhere with guitar!
But, I love Strange…and playing, no matter how poorly or slowly, makes me feel better…
And hey, at least I’m not afraid of my amplifier anymore!
Congratulations on your courage and for claiming the amp’s power over you as your own.