Heated Delays – At Sea – [03/04/2020]

Sleeping School Teacher

For those of you who may be wondering why I have been comparatively quiet this contract (especially for a Grand Voyage, I know I usually talk a lot on a Grand) there are two explanations. The first is that there has been rather a lot going on off-page that has kept me from writing much of anything down. That’s neither here or nor there and most of it is probably not all that interesting to anyone not directly involved.

The rest of the explanation is actually startlingly simple: Brazil.

We’re in Brazil.

For what feels like a very very long time.

This is not entirely by choice you see. Amras and I took this contract for one specific reason: it was the ship open for some form of both of our positions (Amras actually had to temporarily switch positions to come here), which is the only way we can actually be together. I mean we’ve only been married a handful of months, we kind of want to stay together! However, in order to achieve that – the last quarter of the itinerary is the price we pay for it.

Don’t get me wrong – there are a lot of things about South America that I actually really enjoy. Argentina? I would go back to any day. Rio in Carnival? Absolutely crazy but worth the adventure despite that. The very fact that we’re going down the Amazon? Also seriously amazing. A few days ago we had professional samba dancers in full costume parade through the shipboard buffet during dinner hour. I mean, not many people get to say that about their workplace!

But…the rest of Brazil? Brazil is not what you see in the postcards. People come here expecting balmy temperatures, beautiful beaches and vivid culture. What you don’t necessarily expect? Is that that vivid culture is very very different from what you may be used to. Those temperatures rocket up into the low 90s and most of the time the shops are not airconditioned and the streets provide little to no shade. And the beaches are no where near our ports (unless you want to swim in the harbour, which I definitely would not recommend!). And for every vividly beautiful handicraft market there is a port life Recife (where we called a few days ago), where the sun beats down on street side stalls full of everything from coconuts (okay, drinking out of a coconut is brilliant no matter where you are), to sad and tired looking tanks of sad and tired looking fish that seem to be gradually warming to death in the relentless heat. You feel like you want to somehow rescue everyone and everything; all while trying to breath through your mouth to somehow avoid coating your sinuses with the smell of the open sidewalk drains baking in that same heat.

This little Canadian girl? With her fair skin and freckles? Isn’t built for these temperatures. And as an empath, I sometimes feel I’m not built for the overall environment of this part of the world. It makes me tired and angry and frustrated that – even if I won the lottery six times over – I wouldn’t be able to fix any of it.

So, I have been quietly staying in most of the time, working on my rather large embroidery project and trying to catch sleep where I can on a ship that sometimes seems to be fighting against granting that wish.

But we continue steadily onwards. As of today we started slowly making our way down the churning caramel waters of the Amazon…

And if there is one thing that this area of the world always reminds me of? It is how incredibly grateful I am to have been so lucky in my life…because it is after all only chance, that they are not me, and I am not them.

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My-Oh-Me-Oh – Rio, Brazil – [02/22-23/2020]

What to say about Rio during Carnival…

Well, the biggest, most famous street party in the world? Is 2 parts awesome and 1 part absolutely terrifying. Seriously, you have never seen anything like this. The fun part about Carnival is that it’s – apparently – just a party for the sake of a party; and it is one huge party.

Of course, a lot of people go to the Sambadrome – a huge all night dance parade that clamours through until 7am with – as far as I know – no breaks. But the Sambadrome is not the only party, in fact many would say it’s not even the real party. The real Carnival is in the streets. Huge block parties with massive moving stages that draw the crowd with them along the beaches, their thumping bassline rattling windows and ribcages alike. It is an amazing experience.

Our first day in Rio we didn’t do any of the big parties. Instead, we went to Sugarloaf Mountain, because I had never been there. It was a cloudy day, but the view from the top was still breathtaking, especially when Christ The Redeemer just peeked out of the clouds in the distance, looking for all the world like a floating totem pole in the heavens. The Redeemer was not in the cards for us this trip – since we had both been there before and there was only one crew tour being offered. We have found we usually do better exploring on our own. And exploring was easier this time, because in a very rare turn of events Amras actually had several days off in a row (trust me, that does not happen often) so we had no actual deadline to work around. On the way down from Sugar Loaf we encountered the “Museum of Illusion” which gleefully dragged Amras into to shoot pictures of being abducted by aliens and trapped within giant glass bottles (have to love perspective!) before loading back into our waiting cab and making our way back to the ship to pick up what we would need for the rest of the night (we were booked into a hotel for the evening).

Now, there’s something to be said for trying to get around during Carnival: it is insane. Roads closed, traffic backed up – and even when the roads are open? They are clogged with people. A few blocks from the ship the cab crawled nearly to a halt and we were surrounded by…people. Not angry people, not a frightening mob, people…who were happy. Probably more than slightly drunk…but happy. People kissing in the streets, wearing feathers or dressed as Greek gods. This is not the kind of traffic jam you will ever see anywhere else.

As it turns out there was a massive gay carnival parade being hosted in the warehouse right next to the ship..which I imagine at least some people onboard weren’t quite prepared for.

As for us, we were in a hotel on Barra beach, which – when we arrived – did have a swinging block party practically underneath our balcony (which did not do good things for my headache at the time) but they wrapped up much earlier than we expected and left us with a quiet evening with nothing but the huge breakers rolling in on the beach.

And a pool that had no one in it. When I was little I never understood why my Mum always insisted on swimming only in the evening when we travelled. Little me didn’t quite get the concept of “quiet”. I get it now. There is something incredibly peaceful about being the only one in the water, barely making a ripple as you move back and forth. That pool, that evening swim, was worth the whole weekend.

The next morning we walked Copacabana. Now…this may be one of the most famous beaches in the world – but this time of year? It’s also one of the busiest. You can’t see the famous patterned sidewalk for all the people, souvenir sellers and sand art set up on top of it. The beach itself was actually fairly empty – and we found out why fairly early on. Those same breakers that had been rolling in on Barra beach? Also make themselves known here. We were standing at the back edge of the beach, nearly up against the raised wall of the sidewalk , when suddenly Amras yelps at me to jump…I managed to save the shoulder bag that had all our gear in it (as well as Applejack, who prefers not to get wet), but didn’t quite manage to save myself from the huge breaker that rolled in and soaked me to the knees.

The amusing thing is that if I had somehow jumped and landed in the other direction, I would have landed on the glass full of squished limes that was on the wall next to us…so I still would have been wet, but I would have smelled like lime juice…

That probably would have been okay too.

Carnival is a fascinating slice of humanity, Amras and I speak about five words of portragese between us (water, check please and thank you being the only ones that I know), so it was only on rare occasions that we could understand what was being said around us. But you don’t need to. You just kind of…take it in. The drums are everywhere and they mix with the sound of the water and the rhythm of people’s feet on the sidewalk and where else do you see people of all stripes dancing in the street anyway?

When we finally got back to the ship on the final afternoon I was amazed to find out that there were people who were complaining about having been here during Carnival. Now, I will admit that there were parts of this weekend that did not go as planned…but Carnival itself is not something I complained about, people dream about experiencing something like this.

Rio may not be my favourite city, and sure – it’s not Buenos Aires with it’s history and its tango shows…but it is an experience…and one that, overall, I am still very grateful to have the chance to check off my list.

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For I am Ordinary, Unimportant – Buenos Aires – [02/15/2020]

And if ever I go too far
It’s because of the things you are
Beautiful town…I love you
And if I need a moment’s rest
Give your lover the very best
~ Evita

You let down your people Evita
You were supposed to have been immortal
That’s all they wanted…not much to ask for
But in the end you could not deliever

There are some days that try their hardest to defy description. Amras promised me a Valentine’s Day I would remember, and he’s been planning this weekend since before Christmas. I had no idea what to expect; and for once, I didn’t really try to guess. Actual Valentine’s Day morning he brought a single red rose to me at breakfast…

And then yesterday we packed a bag, I got excused from my morning commitments on 16th, and we packed an overnight bag and went out into the city. The cab pulled up outside of – I kid you not – a 4.5 star hotel, where they had our room ready hours early (check in wasn’t supposed to be until 3, we arrived at 11:30), allowing us to enter into an oasis of comfort (and more importantly, air conditioning) for the next 24 hours.

Now, Amras had been very tight lipped about what he had planned for this weekend, and he was very concerned I would be disappointed. I have, after all, “done” Buenos Aires twice before (one of my contracts even started here a few years ago). But Buenos Aires is one of those cities that you can always come back to and find something different. Anyway, I had no idea what to expect after we dropped off our luggage. Little did I know that he had picked the hotel for a very specific reason, and not just because it was a luxury hotel. He picked it because it was next to a florist.

Today is about you picking whatever flowers you want…so we can go and put them on Evita’s grave.

You could have knocked me over with a feather.

Now, I have “done” Eva Peron’s grave, I’ve done Recolleta cemetery – and that’s what made Amras nervous, because he didn’t realize that I had made that trek before. But I had never done it like this. Picking out those flowers was a very careful process: Tiger lily – for regality and royalty, wealth & Pride. Freesia – innocence and thoughtfulness , daisies – new beginnings, carnations – admiration. Also, carnations to me are opening night flowers, and the local production of Evita was one of the last shows I ever performed in.

There’s a history there.

And – also on purpose – the hotel is across the street from the cemetery.

The City of the Dead is unlike anywhere you will see elsewhere in the world. It’s easy to imagine what it must look like without the tourists, when no living being is walking those streets. Some of the monuments are pristine, some are falling to pieces, some are completely collapsed. A tour guide as we were walking past happened to mention that this was because the modern generation doesn’t see the point in maintaining tombs that are hundreds of years old for family members that they never knew. And if you don’t pay the taxes for the maintenance, the staff of the City do not maintain the monuments.

There are some side streets that are far away from the main thoroughfare, far away from the throngs of tourists crowding in to the “important” graves. On these doors the cobwebs are so thick that you feel like they could be woven into cloth. Glass is broken, flowers toppled. Time or vandalism, it’s hard to say. You could imagine steps echoing off the ancient buildings, whispered through the long quiet walls. I found myself wondering where the cats where. There used to be cats here. They were everywhere, silent guardians of the dead sleeping at the feet of long dead generals.

Who were all these people? What happened to all these stories? Who did they love? Who did they hate? Did they want to end up here? How did those stories end…and when was the last time someone brought them flowers.

Had it been up to me…I would have had a much bigger bouquet.

When we first made our way to Evita’s grave I was too intimated to do anything. There are dozens of people there every hour, and it’s not a very big space. What connection I have to Evita – and it’s a small one compared to the tremendous amount of local emotion attached to her – is private; and I wasn’t quite ready. I dropped a single freesia blossom in front of the grate and we went around the other end of the cemetery instead. But I came back. And though there were still dozens of people around me, though there were still tour guides giving history lectures in the background…for just those few seconds…I was alone. Alone in front of a monument that truly looks no different than any other in the cemetery – except for the flowers. On Evita’s grave there are always flowers; woven into the grates, laid on the marble stoop in front of the door. Always flowers. Evita is woven into Argentina’s culture – she has risen from being a person to being a symbol, no matter what she may or may not have actually been.

And she lies among her enemies and her enemies are surrounded by her…the irony in that circumstance is thick.

There is something very very heavy in that knowledge. It stops you for just a second. And I found myself remembering lines from another completely different musical

It’s a sobering thought isn’t it? No matter what I do or don’t do, no matter how I do it or don’t do it. My last appointment is here ~ The Slipper and the Rose

They wanted her to be immortal.

And all these years later, in a very special way, they’ve have gotten their wish.

Our mission accomplished, we left the City of the Dead to the sunshine and the cats (wherever they are) and went seeking lunch.

Lunch proved to be a non-descript little sidewalk café resteraunt that served the most amazing pasta I have eaten in ages (I swear I have eaten more this weekend than I have in days!).

It is almost impossible to explain how wonderful and rare it is for us to be able to sit down for lunch and not have to be anywhere or run anywhere.

We did have to go back to the ship briefly to change and board the bus to the Tango Show.

The tango show was the one part of the day that was my idea. Because in Argentina tango is a UNESCO Symbol of Cultural Heritage (really, it’s officially designated), if you’re going to see real tango, this is where you see it.

I was expecting the same show I had been lucky enough to see a few years ago. But the bus did not pull up in front of the same theatre, but instead in front of a small local tango theatre with a café out front. We filed into the back and took our seats and…the world…spun into a tiny theatre with a high raised stage and the crying of a bandolier. There is a beauty in tango that pulls something out of you, it reaches down deep and grabs onto whatever you’re carrying with you and draws it to the light. The stress, the pain the worry of day to day life…it…doesn’t disappear exactly, but it takes a back seat. At at a least one point both Amras and I were crying and couldn’t for the life of us have told someone why had they asked. Early in the show there were a lot of attempts at photography (despite the warnings not to do so) but by the halfway mark, phones and cameras disappeared and everyone just…stared.

When you are watching that kind of beauty, it is enough to make your life feel beautiful, no matter what else the outside world may be trying to tell you.

Because we had a hotel, we did not have to reboard the bus to return to the ship. Instead we walked through the early Argentinian twilight. Buenos Aires is an incredible city. Full of art and culture and history everywhere you step. So we walked…taking pictures of landmarks, commenting on architecture, debating on whether or not we had time to make it to the Casa De Rosa (we didn’t)…and eventually stopping for tea at a corner shop before taking a taxi to a very late dinner. A very late very amazing dinner…the salmon I had tasted like a mouthful of ocean water (and trust me, that’s a good thing!).

Seriously, I may not have to eat for a week at this point.

Unfortunately, the real world is whispering just around the corner. We are only in Buenos Aires for these two days. So we need to gather up our wine and roses and head back to the grind. There are new passengers to greet, new shows to play and new classes to teach…

But just once in a very great while…we remember how incredibly important it is to hit the reset button, and carve out a couple of days to just. Be. Us.

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Fluffy Encounters – Gypsy Cove, Falkland Islands – [02/09/2020]

Of all the odd ports we visit, I’ve always had a soft spot for the Falkland Islands. Hotly disputed for over a century (Argentina still lays claim to them) they remain a little piece of Britain in the middle of the northern ocean. It’s rainy and cold and everything is priced in pounds, but it …feels like home. Not Canada home, not really (although the coastline has the same familiar scent as the beach across from our house), but England still holds a very close place in my heart despite my having not set foot there in nearly 12 years. It feels nice to touch that particular base once in a while.

Anyway.

The other thing it is home to is penguins. Lots and lots of penguins. Last time I went through a cruise like this I didn’t get a single wildlife photo, this time we hopped on the shuttle to Gypsy Cove and wandered through the trials there – where there are not only penguins there were baby penguins. Little fuzzy fluffballs looking sleepily up from the side of the path, under the caring eye of a park worker, wondering why exactly they were being disturbed. They are everywhere. At one point you actually had to be careful not to step on one of the little floofs!

It’s peaceful at Gypsy Cove, there’s very little to obstruct the constant breeze coming off of the water, and there’s very little noise except for the sound the sea birds. It’s a good place to think; and I have a lot of reason to think lately.

Once we were finished cooing over the adorable-ness of the world’s most well known flightless bird, we headed back into town for real fish and chips. And also the chance to buy proper British chocolate (there is a difference between American Cadbury and UK Cadbury I swear!) and mail postcards. Postcards are a new hobby that Amras and I have taken up, as it occurred to us that no one seems to get interesting real mail anymore. Now, whether or not any of the ones we have sent actually reach their destination remains to be seen, but at least we’ve tried!

And now, it is onwards towards Argentina.

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At the Skirts of the White Lady – Antarctica – [02/03-07/2020]

And at what feels like long last, we have reached the skirts of Antarctica.

There is no describing Antarctica, not really; it’s a place that defies finding words even for the best of us. Everything here is clearer, crisper – here we are the interlopers, we are the visitors, we are the ones that do not belong. The air is cold enough that it seems to almost burn your lungs at the same time that it completely clears out your head and leaves you incapable of…thinking anything except how vast the world around you really is.

And the…silence. You can hear the thrum of the engines of course, and there will always be a certain amount of noise whenever there are people gathered in any kind of group. But over all, the world feels…tranquil. The ship moves very slowly through this space, so you can actually hear the lap of the waves against the bottom of the ice.

The last time I was here I had a pocket camera and I was totally ill prepared. I didn’t see a single animal. This time, I have an SLR with a (granted relatively short) telephoto lense. This time, I’m as ready as I can be.

But the truth is, you don’t know where to point your lense in the first place. Do you look at the towering glaciers? The mountains? The fields of pink – yes pink – snow? Or at the leopard seal that’s just waking up sleepy eyed from its nap on an iceberg sliding past the edge of the ship.

Where do you even start?

There is ice here that has been untouched by anyone for thousands of years. The ghosts of abandoned research station still dot the coastlines, frozen in time as though their residents are somehow going to return for their gear all these years later.

The white lady holds many many secrets in her cold heart, and I doubt we will ever know all of them.

A ship like ours does not reach her heart, we don’t even get as far as the Antarctic Circle, but we should count ourselves blessed to even be able to glide along her edges.

 

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Southwards – Puerto Montt, Chile – [01/26/2020]

And so it is that we continue to slowly make our way further and further south. Perhaps contrary to expectation it doesn’t get warmer the further south we go, it gets colder. Peru was like a boiling cauldron, whereas Chile is quite a bit more on the temperate side. In fact, many of us are going ashore sporting long sleeves now, and soon many of us will dig into the backs of wardrobes for actual jackets. We are, after all, on our way to Antarctica.

The journey to the “Lady in White” is a long one, and not necessarily all that easy. The weather has been getting steadily rougher, and a few days ago I was reminded of what lay in our path: the Drake Passage. The knowledge that the Drake Passage is looming in front of us makes the little bit of rough seas we’ve been going through now look like child’s play; the Passage has nothing to block the wind and it is somewhat notorious. Wide open and freezing cold it will likely bat us around like a toddler playing with a bathtub toy; but it’s the only way to get to Antarctica so we don’t really have much choice but to brave it.

Did I mention we’re also rounding the Horn this contract? Yup, there will be many green apples consumed I’m sure.

But we’re not there yet. Getting closer, but not quite there.

First we have ports in Chile to call in, many of which are small tired looking places. Our first Chilean port of call reminded me strongly of walking through a video game, although the waterfront market was full of tempting random knick-knacks: bubble wands and t-shirts, knock-off sunglasses and “My small horse” figurines. All brightly coloured and all sold at “the best price”…I always wonder how many passengers buy things like this and then end up getting back to the ship and saying “how did I end up with this?”

Then again, I ended up with a water tumbler with a snowglobe in the bottom (it’s Amras’ fault!!!!) so I can’t really talk….

Then there are others that are even more unusual: Puerto Montt for example, bears the scars of what looks like a disturbing instance of civil unrest; every statue has been defaced in a way that makes it appear to be weeping blood out of one eye. I was trying to figure out why this was so unsettling – graffiti normally doesn’t bother me, and the area where the statues were did not feel remotely unsafe. I think it’s to do with the violence implied in the act, I have no problem at all with rebellion, or with voicing one’s thoughts against a regime that isn’t just – but I’m a fan of words over weapons and blinding something, even symbolically, is just so…violent. Of course, that was probably the point, I imagine that – whatever caused it – the act was meant to set people’s teeth on edge, to make them sit up and pay attention.

That said, Puerto Montt did boast a surprisingly quaint little café and bar, tucked in on the main street like a diamond in the rough. So we wandered there for an hour or so and drank lattes and ate strawberry cheesecake. And then wandered back past the crying statues along the waterfront back to home.

There are some ports that are beautiful and some ports that are just not quite as shiney. Not every port can be a Rio or a Buenos Aires. One thing travelling teaches you is just how different every culture is from the next, and what might be totally acceptable in one is looked askance at in another. You could travel your whole life and still never learn all the cultural rules and expectations so all you can do is your best to stay as open minded as possible.

And so onward we go…eventually to get to the bottom of the world.

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Every Breath You Take… – [01/20/2020]

And you! Don’t make a habit outta that you know there are other ways of getting attention! ~ Tarzan

I am honestly not quite sure how to begin this; it feels very important that I write it down, if only for myself, but I don’t know exactly where to start it.

Let’s try this: yesterday I had a very big scare. One of those ‘throws everything into stark prospective scares’, I mean, not cancer level or anything but…

Dammit, this isn’t working…

Let’s try the band-aid method: Yesterday I could have died.

I don’t mean that in the metaphorical “live every day as if it’s your last sense” (or as Buffy said once “seize the moment, because tomorrow you could be dead”), no I mean it literally. If it had not been for Amras’ swift and timely intervention, I’m honestly not sure what would have happened or how things would have played out. I suspect I would have – at the very least – ended up in medical.

It was just lunch! I mean, how dangerous can a hamburger be? It’s not as if I am allergic to anything. But something got swallowed the wrong way – which at first, did not seem like a big deal, these things happen after all. But the usual cough to clear whatever it is from my throat did nothing, and then suddenly…I couldn’t breath. Amras said later that I managed one great big gasp and then there was nothing. Just….nothing. It felt like my throat had filled up with some kind of expanding foam, leaving not an ounce of room for anything to get through anywhere. It couldn’t have been more than a split second between when I realized I couldn’t breathe and when Amras started moving but it felt like much much longer…time just kind of…stretched out and slowed down…like toffee being pulled thin. So many things went through my head…top of which was of course “oh my god, I can’t breathe….why can’t I breathe”…followed by “why doesn’t someone do something…please please someone do something….”

But the world didn’t stop, didn’t notice…didn’t see anything. There were guests sitting right next to us, who didn’t notice anything until the danger was already passed. Because one thing that I never thought of before this happened, is that when you’re choking, you don’t make any noise – because you can’t. There’s just…nothing, you can’t even speak. You can’t swallow, you can’t do anything.

And then Amras was there, looking at me, reading my face….

Is this real? Do you need it?

I don’t remember nodding, I do remember putting my hands to my throat. That was all he needed; he stepped around behind the chair and gave me the Heimlich (not a comfortable thing to receive) and pounded on my back hard, until eventually the little tiny thing that was blocking my throat dislodged and I was able to start dragging in these long wet-sounding ragged breaths. Throughout this process once of the weird thoughts that was going through my head was “oh no, I’m going cause everyone so much trouble!”

That’s about when time started moving properly again.

Amras sat down next to me, watched me drink some water, and made sure I was actually breathing clear…then got up and walked off without a word. He returned about five minutes later with a cup of earl grey tea – heavy on the cream and sugar, and just put it in front of me.

That boy knows me he does.

I’m…I’m…not really hungry anymore…

There’s bread pudding…

Yes…that could…be okay…something soft…very soft…

I was still shaking about an hour later. I almost had to turn it into something funny – even though it wasn’t funny – just so that I could go back to work.

I am okay. This could have been substantially worse, it could have been tragically worse I suppose. But I don’t think I have ever been that frightened ever before, and I don’t want to be ever again. People say that when you think you are going to die your life flashes in front of your eyes. I’m not sure that’s exactly how I would put it, but it’s amazing how much you can think in what is properly just a few short seconds. I do remember clearly thinking “I could pass out here, the next time I wake up, if I wake up , I could wake up in medical”…

I am still frightened. Even now, 24 hours later, it’s still with me. I don’t really know how long it will stay with me. I think this is one of those things that simply does not leave you. It’s going to be one of those stories that keeps circling back: the day my husband saved my life in the middle of the pool deck…

 

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Unexpected – General St Martin, Peru – [01/18/2020]

Peru is not necessarily what you expect it to be. Well, unless you’ve been there before and you expect it to be a little dodgy, a little dirty and involve a lot of very long bus rides (oh so many bus rides). It’s also a great place to get really cool handy crafts, but the only llama you’ll see unless you go on tour are the super fluffy toy alpacas that they sell at the markets (I now own one of those, three seasons in South America, I developed a sudden need for a fluffy llama in my life.)

The buses we’ve been trundling back and forth on to various markets of all sizes in the last few days have waded through tight and busy streets surrounded by buildings that in some ways reminded me strongly of the landscapes I see in the post-apocalyptic video games that Amras and I play; all fallen brick and browned white-wash. Even the patches of green -while well cared for – look dusty and somehow neglected under the grey-washed sky. It’s sobering really, because as you’re sitting there bored on the bus, you can’t help but realize that this is the way the vast majority of the world lives – in this dusty, somehow sorrowful, unfinished feeling state.

We are so so lucky.

Of course, after several days of doing nothing but riding buses through what felt like nowhere to what felt like nowhere, if we didn’t see something of actual interest soon we were going to go a little bit crazy.

One of the most amazing sites that you can see in Peru without having to take a tour inland (in which case the obvious choice would be Maachu Picchu), is the Candelabra. Carved into the hardened soil of the hillside just outside the harbor to General St Martin, it soars over 800ft high and bears a sharp resemblance to the world famous Nazca Lines. Historical theorists claim that it was carved as a marker for sailors as early as the year 200BC, but no one is really sure that it isn’t older than that, and no one is 100% sure that that was it’s original purpose. Like the Nazca Lines, it remains one of the earth’s mysteries. When you see it on the wall (and it’s not actually that easy to spot at first), it reminds you a little of giant child’s drawing, as if some alien toddler got loose with the family lazer-pen and decided to scribble on some walls.

It was…breath-taking.

Sometimes, you are just going about your life, and you can be completely bored and blah about everything and something unexpected comes along and makes you realize just how awe-inspiring the world can really be.

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Old vrs New – Manta, Ecuador – [01/13/2020]

She’s sparkling clean this new-born ship
But one old thing is clear
The orders they propose above
We execute down here
We’ll watch from here as up above they catch a whiff of glory
This wonderous ship may be brand new
But it’s the same old story

or

My dear Mr. Latimer prepare to greet our clientele
Our meeting is imminent, our having just rung the dinner bell
It won’t be a novelty, we mostly have seen them all before
Prepare for the usual, you should be aware of what’s in store!

And ready or not, here we go. Three ports under our belt and I’m still adjusting to the fact that somehow Amras and I got ourselves signed up for a Grand Voyage. By accident. How did we manage that? We took this contract because it was the only one available that would allow us to be on the same ship together (we’ve been married 7 months, and I think we’ve physically been in the same place for about…two of those until this point! We definitely wanted a ship together!).

The department meetings are a lot smaller these days what with all the changes that have shifted down. There’s very few of us left (the other positions still exist, but they’ve been moved to half-guest status and as a result no longer have to attend team meetings…it’s rather strange), but we had a lot of new joiners at the beginning of this contract. The conversation from our supervisor went something like this:

So, how many of you have ever done a Grand?

My hand, and perhaps three others rose slowly into the air. As I looked around, I realized that all these new people? They are in for a heck of a ride…Grands are a different beast, you can have been with the company for a decade, and if you’ve never done a grand? You’ll feel like you’re fresh you’re your first contract…in some ways, in some other ways of course, they’re exactly the same. Not surprised, our boss continued on (and I paraphrase here, the meeting was a few days ago):

So, let me tell you about these guests. At the mariner’s welcome aboard party this morning we had over 600 people, and that’s just the mariners. These are people that have been cruising for years and know everything inside and out. And they want to know you. They will ask you to dinner, they will ask about every corner of your life…make sure you put up a wall and hold it when you need to. Because they want to know everything.

And she’s right. The guests do want to know everything about everyone. And in some cases, they already do. There are people on the ship right now who know Amras and I from several previous contracts, who greeted us like old friends. We couldn’t walk more than a few feet on embark day without someone stopping one of us. This one cruise where I always had someone to talk to at the sail way. Some people are here that I never expected to leave the flagship (and just to clarify, this isn’t the flagship!).

It’s strange, I never really think about how many long cruises I’ve done until it actually comes up. Somewhat like the movie A League of Their Own “I was never really part of it, it was just something I did that’s all….”

Sometimes you don’t want to admit you’ve done a Grand, sometimes you don’t want to draw that kind of attention to yourself. You don’t want to be “that” girl (and trust me, I’ve had teammates who are ‘that’ girl). And yet…

And yet…

Well…

I did have one team member actually ask me afterwards just how many World Cruises I have done, her jaw dropped a little when mutely held up five fingers and added “and four Grand Voyages”…sometimes it feels weird to actually say it out loud.

How did you get so lucky?

And I paused in my steps as we wandered around the sail away party…

I wasn’t lucky…not really. I was requested back. I was …very good at my job.

And that’s it really. I don’t want to be the one who brags endlessly about how much she has done. I don’t want to be ‘that’ girl, but I am good at these cruises. I know what these people want, I know how to walk the very fine balance between letting them in and keeping them safely away. I know what they expect. And why do I know that? Because I’ve been doing these cruises for almost ten years. And because I am damn good at my job. Because I put up for years with them making me cry over trivia and standing up to them over the internet, I’ve run their book clubs and literally held their hands through family disasters. I know these guests. Or at least I know enough of them to know how to handle them. They don’t scare me, not anymore.

Walking onto a Grand Cruise for me is like putting on an old comfortable cardigan; it’s possibly shrunk a bit in the wash, it maybe doesn’t fit as well as it used to, but once you wear it a few times you find it stretches out and sits comfortably across your shoulders like the day you first put it on.

We’re in an area of the world where I’m perhaps not always the most at ease (I’m not a big fan of South America…too hot), our cabin is tiny (don’t get me started) and the A/C only works sporadically, in the last few days we’ve put in four separate work orders and had at least two visits to the HRM (because he agrees that having a working shower in this part of the world is…kind of important!) but hey, we’re together, and we know what we’re doing…

What can I say? We’re on an adventure…

And we have totally got this…

And no guests, no matter how foolish or demanding are going to ruin that for us.

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The Next Chapter – Victoria Bc – [12/31/2019]

What a difference a lowly year can make.

As I look back on the rollercoaster that has been 2019 – I have to admit it has been mostly ups. It’s also been laced with its fair share of sorrow and threaded through with a fair bit more stress than I care to admit (again, I’m lookin’ at you red tape!)…but yes, mostly up.

2019 showed me that what I have always believed is true: happy endings exist, but they take work. It taught me that there are always ups and downs and that sometimes you are going to feel like you absolutely fail at this whole “being an adult” thing. But you know what? For every time you feel like a failure? There is going to be a time when you feel like a phoenix rising from the ashes. I have discovered hidden skills and buried pools of talent that I had no idea where there just waiting to be discovered. I have perhaps lightly singed a few bridges and repaired a few more. Things have been…interesting. And hovering over all that is the fact that I went through a major life transition when I walked down an aisle towards a man that I absolutely adore. Leaving behind one part of my life and walking into another. 2019 was a year of leaps of faith and new adventures. It was a year of hope and fright all rolled into one.

And then there were the bigger things.

These are trouble and chaotic times in which we live. The world is becoming – seemingly daily – a very frightening place. But that doesn’t mean it has to stay that way. Because the other thing that 2019 reminded me of? No matter how small you feel, no matter how insignificant; you can make a difference. Even if the only person you are making a difference to is the person sitting next to you on the bus. Like I say nearly every year: tomorrow is the beginning of a 365 page book…you get to choose what you write in it. That story is totally your own. Just remember that: what ever choices you make, whatever reactions you have…make your story a good one.

And when all else fails? Please be kind.

Happy New Year everyone.

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