Day after day, I must face a world of strangers where I don’t belong
And I’m not that strong
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When there’s no getting over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won’t come true
I can face all the madness the World has to give
And it does look like the World is going to hold its share of madness this year. As it always does. I suspect I’ll be getting a lot more sewing done, as anything that makes me Zen out? Is going to be an absolute must this contract because doing double duty is seriously draining me. Once I find the rhythm – which I am slowly but surely starting to do (today was so much smoother than the last two have been) – it’ll be fine, I’ll scramble back up to the top of my game.
But I also tell you this: I’m SO glad I took that break over the summer. So glad I recharged in Italy with good food and good wine and bloody amazing friends. So glad I got a chance to work with Family. Because if I’d been coming into this straight off the Grand Voyage? I honestly question whether or not I would be here at all. I’m good, I’m seriously damn good, but what’s basically a whole new job on top of my old one straight off a Grand contract? No way, no can do. So yes, I’m exceptionally glad that didn’t happen.
Of course, most people don’t even realize that this holiday voyage was also sold as part of the World Cruise. It wasn’t precisely widely advertised, but it was on the company website, so we do have world cruisers on board with us. Thankfully, they’re the nice ones! So when people ask me “are you staying for the world” I’m tempted to shrug and say “well, I’m technically already on the World” but it’s not worth trying to explain. It is, however, easier for me to think of it all as one contract.
It’s interesting for me to think that not too long ago comparatively I was terrified of this job, I questioned everything and everyone. Now? I run the flagship library, from the bottom up… from the collection ordering to (these days) the internet system. Suddenly I’ve become all grown up, with a big person career and stuff…
Seriously…someone tell me how exactly that happened???