After a great deal of struggling with myself and a near bout of tears of frustration…I actually have managed to make palpable progress…I can still only reliably finger four chords…at max…
But this afternoon I managed to finger a D-chord, and a clumsy D to A-major switch…without looking at my fret board
Considering I couldn’t even finger a D-chord reliably a week ago, I am going to count this up as a victory.
I am actually more than a little bit proud of myself for this. It’s a small milestone but it’s one that when I was tearing my hair out over just trying to figure out a D-chord I never thought I would reach.
So therefore, small as it is, it totally and utterly counts.
I need to remind myself of that. Frequently.
I am my own worst enemy in this. I know this. I am a horrible self-critic, if I can’t do something ‘properly’ (or perfectly) right away, I have a tendency to want to throw up my hands and walk away thinking it isn’t meant to be. This is one of the reason that I never became a full-fledged Dancer (the capitalization is important) and one of the reasons I remain a bit of a diva about my voice. Guitar? Is the first thing that I’ve picked up without a scrap of knowledge as to where to begin…and at the moment, my own sense of self-critique is definitely working against me…
But hey, I have two chords…one of which I could barely manage before…
And I made a deal…when I got this guitar…not with a person, but with the guitar itself. I honor my deals…not quite sure how I’ll manage that just yet…but I’m going to.