Interlude II – At Sea – [04/04/2019]

And just like that you’re off again.

I’ll be brutally honest here – I didn’t want to take this contract. It’s only a month long, but losing this particular month this close the wedding? This close to everything else that is so much more important? That’s a tough decision to have to make. Most of my choices aren’t very money driven, but this one was. I couldn’t afford to take 5 straight months off before getting married, so my boss was kind enough to give me a month long filler in the middle.

Practically, it makes a very great deal of sense.

Emotionally? Leaving town in April when you’re getting married in June? That may not have been my wisest move, there is so much to do at home – and most of it is fun stuff, fun important BIG stuff! That I’m finding it increasingly difficult to be…here…instead.

But that said, it IS only for a month. That’s only four Fridays! And then I get to be back home.

I’ve been giving a lot of thought to the concept of “home” these days. I found myself getting extremely upset yesterday when I was sitting in the welcome onboard meeting and the HR Manager had the nerve to say “honestly THIS is your home, because how much time do you spend anywhere else?”; because nope this isn’t my home. Never has been. The flagship perhaps almost was, but ships in general? Nope, not home.

And nope, no one gets to say that it is. Not nobody not no how.

This? It is a career, like any other. It has its ups and its downs. These days it is – I’ll admit – wearing a little thin…at times, in places.

But the guests this contract so far are funloving, and kind, and the management team is laid back and seems to genuinely care at least a little. And that does make a huge difference.

Yup, I got this.