Remember when you went out for your first job? Remember how you were so nervous you couldn’t sleep the night before the interview. Remember how crushed you were when the guy asked ‘what kind of experience do you have?’, you wanted to shake your fists and say I can do anything if someone would just give me a chance. ~ Secret of My Success
What feels like weeks ago Toffy told me that my application for Head Office had been passed over because of lack of experience; I was – at the time – devastated, but she told me to reapply directly since I was an internal candidate. She helped me rework my resume and my cover email and I dutifully sent them off. I received a response within an hour saying that they would follow up with HR and get back to me as soon as possible.
To be honest, I didn’t really expect anything to come of it.
Until I was sitting checking my email last week after the department party and suddenly what I was seeing in my inbox actually registered.
OHmygod!
What what is it?
OHMYGOD
You’re freaking me out, what IS it?
The interview…I…I got the interview.
They had sent the interview confirmation the day before, but I hadn’t been properly online yesterday; so I never received it. I agonized for a few minutes over a professional sounding response that included an apology for my delay in replying, I must have deleted it about six times before settling on something that sounded half decent.
Hell, I suck at this kind of stuff.
And I read him off what I’d sent.
No you don’t suck at this stuff, that sounded perfect.
I did get a read receipt back in a few minutes, but no actual response. I didn’t get a response until this week, when corporate HR wrote to me to set up a phone interview for tomorrow afternoon. It feels strange knowing that this time I will be the one plastering a sign on the Entertainment Office door reading “Conference Call in Progress DO NOT DISTURB”…
I have no idea what I want from this, not really. This is a job I could do, and do well, but it is also a huge life change if it actually happens, and to be honest I’m not sure if it’s a life change that I’m ready for. That said, it is also just an interview; not a job offer, not a guarantee, just an interview. I can say no, I can tell them the truth and say I’m unavailable until June (which, considering that I have another contract locked in after this is technically true), there’s nothing really I can do except just see what way the chips fall.
They say that when you toss a coin you already know which way you want it to land…but right now it seems my penny is spinning in the air…