Prepare for the Usual – San Diego – [10/01/2017]

I swore I would never go back. I really did. And I haven’t. Not really. But I made a promise, and promises are something I keep.

So this morning’s embark day of this particular Grand Voyage found me in the library….

At least this time I was only training the new girl. Head Office must have realized that running a grand voyage without someone behind the library desk was an exercise in futility for all concerned. Since I was once almost the most senior librarian the fleet had, my current supervisor asked me if I would please train the girl they were bringing in at least enough that she wasn’t eaten completely alive. My supervisor is a pretty awesome guy, and he’s been very good to me, so I said yes. Also, it never hurts to stock up a few brownie points, since he does also make our IPM schedule after all.

I did most of the technical prep work during wet dock: fixing the computer (I don’t know how it is that the catalogue system got THAT broken but at least I was able to repair it, though it took me an hour), ordering and scheduling all the quizzes, reprinting and recreating the handover manual (which had been deleted, again, not sure how that happened)…when embark day rolled around all I had to do was sit down and teach her.

Which would have been a lot easier if there weren’t already two guests waiting for us demanding solutions to internet problems. Not even willing to wait until the actual trainee showed up.

I’m sorry ma’am this really isn’t my area…

But they sent me to you.

Thankfully I was able to figure out the problem. But my heart kicked into overdrive, and I could feel my head starting to swim. Amras happened to be there, dropping off some paperwork, and he saw what he thought was anger, but it wasn’t. I explained that later: not anger, fear. Fear plain and simple. Fear that I would get sucked back into this again, fear that I was still very good at it, fear that it wouldn’t let me go.

Thankfully though, the new girl is awesome, and has a very good handle on the position already, and has already done some fill ins in the past. She’s got her training wheels mostly off and doesn’t appear close to drowning, so I am safe to go back to my computers and my set hours and closed doors.

Because here they come, ready or not!

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Let’s Play Wet Dock – Round 2! – Seattle, Wet Dock Day 3 – [09/28/2017]

Scenario: you are (still) a worker on a cruise ship. Your floating home is moored for one more day in a big city, after which you will be heading out to sea (still with no passengers). You have one day left to pick up supplies, photographs, etc before you will be on a ship at sea for three days dodging construction workers.

Primary Level objective: Get back to the ship. You must be back on board before 10, and the last shuttle in from town is 9:30. Being a smart person, you have planned to catch the 8:30 shuttle. However, you must still get to the shuttle stop, and the shuttle must still get to the ship.

Your choices for objective: shuttle stop

1)     Walk

2)     Uber

3)     Taxi

4)     Lyft

You may proceed.

You choose:

Option 1: Sorry, looks like you didn’t quite allot enough time to make that walk. Plus you’re a little shaky and feeling a little dizzy, probably should have grabbed more powerups earlier (remember, hot dogs are only worth about 10 hit points!). However you get back, you’re going to need wheels.

Option 2: Seriously? This is really too expensive.

Option 3: Did we mention expensive? You do have a bonus power up “taxi voucher” in your pocket that you earned on an earlier mission, but do you really need to use it? Didn’t think so

Option 4: Oh dear, app that runs this option seems to be down. Quick, restart your pocket device. Did that work? Excellent. A drive will be with you shortly.

LEVEL UP!! Congratulations! You have reached the shuttle stop! You have earned a power up, treat yourself to a pumpkin spice beverage before the next level.

: You are safely onboard the shuttle. This part of the game is automated, but random. There are several factors at play, gameplay experience may vary based on circumstance.:

Automated Obstacle one: Your bus has been delayed at a railroad track! However, despite the flashing lights there is absolutely no sign of a train. Bus departed stop at 8:30 current time is approximately 8:45. Time to turn around! Automated Obstacle two: The roads are winding and dark, it’s a good thing that this is a cutscene, because you have no idea where you are

Automated Obstacle two: Great you are only a few blocks from the port! But wait, what’s that? IT’S ANOTHER TRAIN! And it sounds angry! Better stop while the train gets out of your way…

Objective complete!

You have reached the ship! Please make sure to scan your crew ID at the gangway to collect bonus points!

 

 

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Let’s Play Wetdock! – Seattle, Wetdock Day 3 – [09/27/2017]

Scenario: you are a worker on a cruise ship. Your floating home is currently ensconced in a maintenance period, where she is being prepared for a long voyage with highly demanding passengers. As everything for this voyage is expected to be perfect, and there is only one week to complete the necessary work,  the ship is very busy (although there are no passengers), however, your department is basically just trying not to get in the way.

Your primary objective: go through your day to day life without walking in the wrong place, getting in the way, stepping on anyone, or stepping anywhere that you aren’t supposed to. Keep track of moving  dining locations, meeting locations, water and power outages, and the joy of showering without any hot water. Attempt to look at least mildly presentable and remember which cabin you’re sleeping in.

Your secondary (daily) objective): obtain breakfast. Breakfast is located on the 8th deck of the ship, your current sleeping quarters are on deck 2. There are several routes, breakfast points will be awarded based on speed of completion. Breakfast opens at 6:30 and closes at 9:30, latecomers will not receive food. Proceed and good luck.

You can choose:

1)     “down and up” (down to A-deck hallway, over and up through crew elevators to deck 8)

2)     Main forward guest elevators

3)     Main forward crew elevators

4)     Main forward stairs

5)     Mid-ship guest elevators

6)     Mid-ship stairs

7)     Aft guest elevators (access via port side corridor)

8)     Aft guest elevators (access via starboard side corridor)

Please make your selection.

You choose:

Option 1? Sorry, your path is blocked by an unexpected flood, lots of people look rather frustrated and very wet. Plus there’s a lot of shop vac’s going, probably best to stay away from A-deck for a little bit.

Option 2? Sorry, those elevators are out of order. Maybe you should go with…

Option 3: Sorry, looks like those elevators are out of order too…looks like it’s stairs for you…but wait…

Option 4: oh-uh! Looks like you almost fell victim to the dreaded carpet glue goo! This stuff will stick you to the floor in seconds and nearly tear the bottoms off your shoes! Looks like you can’t go this way!

Option 5: Silly player! what made you think these elevators would be working? we told you to take the stairs!

Option 6: Great looks like these stairs are clear! Oh wait, you get up one deck and then hit another patch of glue goo. Plus there’s a lot of contractors looking very intent about putting carpet on top of that glue goo…maybe you’d better try

Option 7: Oh dear, that corridor is completely filled with workers, and machines, and what looks like maybe electrical wires hanging from the ceiling. No way you’re going to be able to squeeze down there without getting squashed…best keep looking!

Option 8: Oh no! This corridor is blocked by two workers and a ladder! Wait, looks like there’s a little tiny bit of space between the ladder and the wall! If you hold your breath you should be able to squish through it!

Eureka! You’ve made it through! You have a clear shot to the aft deck elevators and they’re working!

Achievement unlocked: Scrambled Eggs

Congratulations! You have obtained breakfast! Enjoy those eggs, you’re going to have to go through the whole thing again at lunch!

 

 

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Playing Hooky – Seattle, Wetdock Day 2 – [09/26/2017]

I never knew that…playing hooky could be so much fun.

Neither did I.

~ Hercules

Wetdock has provided the entertainment department with a rather unusual circumstance: aside from the occasional training meeting and the coast-guard required crew drills – we have…basically nothing to do. We dutifully check our boxes every morning and usually find them empty, and then we’re sort of…on our own.

In Seattle.

Essentially we are on paid vacation. We are, for the most part, absolutely fine with that.

I was excused from my safety training this morning because I had an early morning appointment off the ship, Amras was excused because he was escorting me to said appointment. Since the appointment itself took almost an hour and a half from start to finish, it was easier to just stay out for the day then to go back ‘home’ and come back out again…so…we just started walking. The day that started with a rather dreaded doctor’s appointment (don’t worry, I’m fine), definitely improved. Breakfast was freshly made cheese & turkey croissants with chai lattes at a local bakery, it’s hard to be stressed when breakfast is that yummy.

After breakfast, Amras took my hand and walked me to the Frye Art Gallery. Free admission to five exhibits ranging from the original collection to modern day photography and 1970s social commentary style art . At first I was honestly a little concerned that this particular art gallery might not be my thing; after all I did almost flunk modern art when I was at university; but whether the particular art being displayed is really my niche or not, I will always love the feeling of an art gallery. That said, my uneasiness was put aside when the tour guide (who was lovely) turned us into the Salon, where the original collection from the founders of the museum is on display; or at least part of it. Stacked six high on the wall – the way such a collection would likely originally have been displayed – this was the art that I could talk to. Not about, it’s never really been about that for me, but to. The reason I took art history (aside from needing the credits obviously) instead of moving over to “proper” history was because it taught me about the people, not just the rulers and the battles. If you know how to read it, you can learn more from a painting than you can from a book. It’s a language that I had nearly forgotten that I know how to speak, until the tour guide walked us over to one of the paintings hanging low on the wall and asked us one basic question:

What do you see?

I didn’t speak. I’m long out of the days where I’m confident enough in my own knowledge to stick up my hand and give a solid interpretation of what a piece might be, but I did listen to the others. One girl thought it was Eve, one though that the columns on the frame were Grecian. And all the while I am looking at the painting and only one thing is going through my mind

That’s not a person, that’s not just Eve, that’s the Original Sin.

The mini-discussion went on, and suddenly I realized I was actually daring to open my mouth. Mostly in order to agree with others on things like the fact that the figure in the painting had her hair loose, which in certain styles of portraiture was a sign of sensuality especially when coupled with a direct stare at the viewer. Finally the guide pointed to the text, in German, at the bottom of the frame

This is the name of the painting: it’s simply named Sin

I blinked. I was…right? After all this time, and all the things I thought were permanently locked behind doors labeled “university” in my mind, I actually was right?

And now I just really want to go back to school…

Not the first time I’ve thought that, won’t be the last.

The other really cool thing in the gallery was an exhibit by a local artist named Stormie Webber. S/he’s a two-spirit Native American, and the photography exhibit was about the history of one of the oldest gay bars on the west coast. But it wasn’t just about that, it was about everyone who is marginalised. And it was beautiful, a mix of poetry and photography and what felt like so many other things. The stories of the stories that are left underneath when written over. And really isn’t that all we all are in the end?

From the art gallery we just…kept walking. All the way down to Pioneer Square. Despite being yummy breakfast had been light so we were somewhat on the lookout for something in the way of lunch. It was the jazz music from across the street that caught my ear, and the smell of Cajun that caught Amras’ nose. Both our heads turned to the New Orleans’ style resteraunt on the corner.

They open?

Looks like.

You’ve never had Cajun food?

I’ve never been to New Orleans! You know that!

So, this is going to be excellent

And it was. So. Good. We were the only ones in the restaurant as they were just about to close up until the evening; the owner was kind enough to let us stay without rushing us and the food was amazing. As usual, way too much for me, but amazing none the less.

Wait, are we being…normal?

Is that allowed?

I dunno!

We don’t get a lot of normal around here.

After lingering perhaps a little too long over lunch (we definitely tipped the owner for his allowing us to stay at all!) we started walking again. Eventually we ended up at the Underground tour, which I hadn’t been on since I was a kid and which Amras had never been on at all. Our tour guide – who really did look like Mr Bean – was the exact right combination of history mixed with comedian; taking a story that could have been quite dark and turning it into something that was enough to make you laugh…a lot.

The Seattle Underground came about as a result of a town that was really built in completely the wrong place. They built Seattle on a beach, with high tides, so they had huge problems with flooding, and sanitation (seriously, exploding toilets, that had to be timed with the tides or they would explode even worse!)…until in the 1880s, the entire city basically burned to the ground

We solved the problem by burning the entire city to the ground!!!

Apparently the Great Seattle Fire was really a situation where everything that could go wrong did go wrong. Someone working in a glue factory let the glue boil over, and that set that building on fire, the business above the glue factory was…a paint factory…the building next to the paint factory? Was a…hardware store

But ladies and gents this wasn’t just your modern day Home Depot…no this was a gold rush town

At this point, my mind flashes over to my tours at home that talk about this exact thing…and I mutter

How much dynamite was in it…?

That’s right! Gold rush means that the hardware store is full of dynamite, of blasting caps and black powder

So that building went up…and just in case that wasn’t enough the building next to that was a liquor store.

And of course originally all those buildings were built out of wood.

The city didn’t stand much of a chance. Eventually the fire ran out of fuel and thankfully no one was hurt but they were then stuck with having to rebuild the city. When they actually did rebuild, they raised it up using dirt from the nearby hill. The streets were raised up first and then eventually the sidewalks were built to bridge the gaps from the buildings to the streets. So almost all the sidewalks in the Pioneer Square area? They’re hollow underneath.

It’s creepy down there, and dusty and…warm. But also really interesting. Apparently certain parts of it are paranormally active, which wouldn’t surprise me considering Seattle’s history is pretty blood-stained, let’s just say I wouldn’t want to be down there on my own at night. Some of the tour was above ground, the underground isn’t completely interconnected as the streets themselves are solid; so there were so opportunities for present day references. My personal favourite?

The city of Seattle has now passed a bylaw making it illegal for Starbucks to open a Starbucks inside another Starbucks

I was one of only two people who laughed at that! Whatever, I thought it was funny!

And my other favourite:

Seriously, it was getting ridiculous. A while back there were some corners that had a Starbucks on every corner! And then two blocks away you would have a Seriously Seattle Coffee, and then a few doors down from that you’d have another coffee place WITH AN ESPRESSO CART OUTSIDE! Seattle had to legalize marijuana just to get everyone to calm the hell down!

Yup, Seattle likes its coffee.

 

Speaking of paranormal. We are here overnight, and Seattle does have that rather blood-soaked history, so it really isn’t any wonder that we found our way (via music stores, and book stores, and stores that displayed mummies and pin-paintings and every other thing you could think of) to Spooked in Seattle, to finish the evening off with a 90 minute ghost tour.

Yup, even away from home, you can take the girl out of the spooky town but I guess you can’t take the spooky town out of the girl…

The tour didn’t feel like over an hour. Not even close. And unlike the tours we run at home, these guys are based out of a paranormal investigation organization so the girl leading us had an ipad with her with EVP recordings and such, it was a really interesting addition. Even if the technology didn’t always do what it was supposed to do (technology and ghosts don’t’ always get along too well I’ve found). My latent sensitivity seems to have gone a bit into lockdown since I’ve had this ridiculous cold, but there was one part of the city where I was definitely not comfortable. After well over 10 years as ghost tour guide myself and a lifetime growing up in a city like Victoria, it takes a lot to shake me paranormally speaking. I have a vivid imagination but I’m not afraid of the dark (pretty sure I never really have been, though don’t’ ask me to  walk down a sketchy street at night, I call that common sense though), so sitting in a dark room, even one full of creepy dolls and mannequins shouldn’t have frightened me – but there was something about the last room we went into that had my stomach churning and my hair on end. No idea what it was, didn’t make that much known, but …something.

Having had our fill of spooks and shocks we made our weary way to the outdoor terrace of the Hard Rock Café and watched the city lights and listened to the fire crackle.

We don’t treat ourselves often, we’re both low on money and we both have much bigger things to save for…but when we do?

When we do it’s totally worth it.

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Under Construction – Seattle, Wet Dock Day 1 – [09/25/2017]

In eight years there isn’t a great deal I haven’t done on ships, but this will be my first time working through maintenance cruise. To say this is a little bizarre is a bit of an understatement, I have never ever experienced anything quite like this.

This morning I walked into my office to find the doors already open and corporate IT setting up to use it as their headquarters. I knew this was coming, but I had hoped to be a little more prepared for it. Thankfully, Amras recruited himself  to help me and the culinary host haul 24 rather large all in one computers downstairs to the guest room where they will be stored behind a double-locked doors for the duration of wet dock. Once that was finally done I actually stopped and took a look around.

The moment the last passenger left the ship, the army of working crew and contractors went to work coating every good carpet in white plastic, crates containing who knows what get stacked up in the library (which thankfully is locked up for the duration), the whole back area of the ship looks …white. And the front of the ship? Suddenly there are no carpets, the floors are sticky with sawdust and carpet residue and well…that sawdust is everywhere. Water has been shut off on the 6th deck – which happens to be my deck, those of us who live there have an extra room lower down so that we can do the little things like sleep and shower.

Everyone in the entertainment department is walking around in civilian clothes, with just our nametags to show we even belong on board. And while we do have to clock our hours, there are no hours to clock. Except for maybe one hour for a meeting and the time I was moving the computers.

Somewhere in the midst of wandering up to lunch it struck me…there are no passengers here for a week. This ship? It’s ours. It’s being torn apart and put back together but it’s ours…we can use our phones, we can hold hands in public, we can be people.

This…is seriously bizarre. Fun! But bizarre.

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Silent Cogs – At Sea – [09/21/2017]

Even with the new job – which I love, which half the time doesn’t even feel like work – my clockwork sometimes fails me. Crawled into bed relatively early last night because I could tell my body was trying to fight off a cold…woke up, bolt up right at 1:30am gasping, completely unable to breathe for what felt like a minute but was probably only a few seconds. Got back to sleep…woke up this morning with a throat that feels like I’ve swallowed sandpaper crossed with…something extremely acidic. While I can speak, it’s only in a very low very quiet whisper – in short…for the purpose of teaching? My voice is useless. May as well say I can’t talk at all…because there was no way I was going to be able to raise this up to teaching level…

The thing is, this was at 7:30 in the morning, and my first class was at 8:30…medical? Who is the only one who can clear me as off duty? They don’t open until 9. Which, incidentally, is also when my boss gets into the office.

What exactly was I going to do before then? We’re strictly not allowed to take ourselves off of duty after all. This isn’t grade school, where you can just not show up and Mum will call you in…

So I found the one person who was already on duty – the Hotel Director, who thankfully is enough of a friend that I could walk into his office this early in the morning. I managed to tell him what was going on…and he pulled me off duty.

Shaughnessy can’t really speak…so she can’t really do the teaching thing…because that’s just…not going to work. So can we have a sign for her door please?

At least that’s enough to get me to medical…

Why is it always my voice that gets hit when I get sick? And it’s not like I make a habit of getting sick in the first place. Trust me, I would much rather work if I could…I hate this feeling fine but knowing just knowing that if I try to talk my way through a day of teaching with this throat then by tonight it will be fully gone. I know that as a singer…because it’s happened, and it’s nasty. I know logically that I need to rest my vocal chords now when they need it a little less or the damage will be worse and I’ll be out for longer (as it is I’ll probably only be out for today)…but that doesn’t mean I have to like it…

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We Went…which-a-way? – Homer (not Seward), Alaska – [09/20/2017]

When you’ve done as many contracts as Amras and I have in Alaska, you kind of come to the natural assumption that you know the ports. After all, between the two of us we have been up and down the Alaska coast probably at least a half dozen times. It’s fair to say that we usually know where we are

At least we thought that…until yesterday…

We both were certain of where we were, we had plans based on where we were certain that we were. So we got on the bus to go and do those plans …only to find that when we got off the bus absolutely nothing looked familiar.

Nothing, not even a street.

The town we thought we were in had a bustling little downtown and a couple of pool halls (which was where we were planning on going, Amras owes me a rematch from…2015) but what we got instead was…nothing. There were two restaurants, one of which was closed and one of which was an overpriced crepe place (sadly the crepes weren’t even that good).

Where ARE we?

I have no idea…

Shouldn’t there be an aquarium there? And a brewery there…and the pool place right next that..

We can’t both be going crazy

We weren’t crazy as it turned out, we were just totally confusing our ports. It turned out we were thinking of Seward, though it took us a long time to figure out that that was where we were thinking about. Before that there was a lot of confused wandering around wondering who took all the buildings…

Apparently Alaska can still surprise us…

 

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Sparkle Creek – Ketchikan, Alaska – [09/13/2017]

Usually the end of the Alaska season is a mess of rain and rough weather; but so far this cruise it seems that Mother Nature has decided that the storm she pounded us with last week (which at one point had the ship on a 12 degree tilt for a nauseating 9 minutes, that was not fun) …was enough.

The sun poured out of a bright blue sky in Ketchikan this afternoon, spilling over the brightly coloured buildings of Creek Street and glittering off the water of the creek itself.

It’s the end of the season, so the streets were blissfully near empty where only a few weeks ago they were heaving with people. It’s really only at this time of year that you can honestly see the town for what it is. Just a little fishing town that is closing up after us and tucking itself in for the off season.

Of course end of season also means sales. Let’s just say that we’ve laid in a good supply of chocolate for the many sea days head of us! As well as some seriously yummy smoked salmon, because somehow you just can’t go to Alaska without picking up at least one tin of smoked salmon

Om nom nom nom nom

Also, seeing as how it is the end of season ,Amras and I were able to grab a seat at the Lumberjack Show. Unlike the last time we attended several seasons back, this time I made absolutely sure to sit on the Canadian side of the competition line, and then proceeded to giggle at the fact that many people hadn’t realized there is a competition line. If you sit on one side you cheer for Dawson Creek (go Canada!) if you sit on the other you cheer for the US team (boo!). As the MC of the show was all too happy to point out

Now I notice some sour faces over on the Dawson Creek side about the fact that y’all are cheerin’ for Canada. Awww…well, let me just say, if you aren’t happy with who your team is or where you’re sittin’….TOUGH!

Canada lost (we were robbed!) but a good time was definitely had by all. Especially with the sunshine being as brilliant as it was.

After the show we ambled up past the main part of town and realized just how much the town really has changed. Gone is the vintage store where we used to play pinball, the saloon we played pool at was closed, and much to my dismay the hippy-style store where I brought my prayer flags is gone as well. But some things stay the same, the Burger Queen building is still where it’s always been, and the milkshakes there are still so thick you can barely use a straw (I swear this was the first time I’d tried one ,and yet it felt vaguely familiar somehow), and the streets all still lead where you expect them to. The restaurant by the bay doesn’t serve chowder any more, but still serves excellent fish and chips, and there is still a creepy Santa in the window of the local Christmas shop.

Everything does change after all. Even in something as seemingly unchanging as a beautiful little town at the edge of a river in Alaska.

But sometimes sunshine just makes everything seem timeless.

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On Breakthroughs – Ketchikan, Alaska –[09/13/2017]

Progress report:

You learn three chords, you can play any rock n’ roll song in the books

My father said that…and much as I hate to admit it, he was probably right.

I knew for the last two weeks that Strange (that’d be my guitar) was definitely not tuned properly. She was tuned enough for me to kind of fumble through things, and was basically in tune with herself, but she was definitely not actually in tune. The truth is, I have great ears for melody – you give me the starting note and I can most likely sing you the whole chart, just don’t ask me to find the starting note, because those ears of mine are really not that good with pitch. Guilty secret – the singer has great intonation but lousy pitch detection. It is ever my shame. So anyway, I knew my E-string was tuned too low, but I couldn’t for the life of me manage to fix it. Thankfully, Amras was able to easily. Note to self: your boyfriend will not usually be there to tune your guitar Shaughnessy, get yourself a tuning app for your phone please? Or learn to use a tuning fork. This is not a skill you can continue not having.

Anyway, when he first walked in the cabin tonight, Amras asked politely if he could say hello to Strange. I said yes of course, but watched him wince as he struck the first chord

Ouch

Yeah, I know, my E-string is off, I can’t get it tuned right

Whole thing’s too low, give me a second here

So now my guitar is in tune properly. Which obviously makes a rather big difference in being able to play it. Let’s just say she sounds better now. And after a steady 45 minutes I had another three chords to add to my tenuous library.

Okay, so first finger here…second finger here….third finger here. Now play that. There’s your B.

I think B may be my new D, replacing D as the “chord my fingers really hate the most”. It stretches two frets and it hurts, my wrist does not like adjusting that way. Yet. But I got used to the D, I can get used to this. As it is I did manage it slowly and carefully.

Okay, now finger an E major, right…now take that first finger and slide it over one fret. And now slide it back. There’s your “Ahem” chord, also better known as an Esus4

Heh, everything takes a two

What was that?

Just something my piano teacher used to say, everything takes a two. Got into big debates with Dad about it. Sus chords always remind me of it.

And then there was my favourite moment of revalation

So, do you remember how to play a G?

Ah, no…I know that was the first thing you ever showed me, but it was a really long time ago

And it was. At least in ship time. Amras showed me that chord at least two seasons ago when I had passingly mentioned an interest in one day maybe picking a guitar. Well before I owned Strange. At the time, I couldn’t even come close to mastering it, I remember trying to fumble through fingering it on the Tele and being so unable to even press down the strings that I laughed and explained that my ‘fingers don’t bend that way’.

So today, I started back at the beginning.

Thumb here, third finger here, crossing those two strings, yup, like that…there’s your G

And I could do it! Now only could I do it, it actually felt…almost comfortable?

Okay, now switch that to a D, and back, and again, and now to a C…wild….thing…you make my…heart…sing.

Gah! I can actually hear that! I mean that actually makes sense to me!

Yup, three chords, and you can play rock n’ roll

And I burst out laughing

What’s funny?

That’s what my Dad says.

He’s right

And suddenly the chord chart in front of me for Candle in the Wind that I have been trying to get through and getting painfully frustrated with for days started making sense. I’m not fast, it’s not smooth, but what it is is recognizable

When I realized that I wasn’t sure whether I wanted to laugh or cry. Because in that moment, for the first time since I actually picked Strange up…I started to think hey…maybe I really can do this.

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Grounded Wings – At Sea –[09/11/2017]

 

“Phoenix Rising”, by bf2015

Little did she know she’d kissed a hero
Though he’d always been an angel in her eyes
Putting others first it’s true, that’s what heroes always do And now he doesn’t need a pair of wings to fly…

It doesn’t feel like 16 years.

It never does and it never will.

16 years ago, it was just another Tuesday, a random, unimportant, helpless Tuesday. People got up, they went to work, they packed up lunches, they kissed kids goodbye

They got on planes…

What happened after that is in the history books now. We can’t change it, we can’t bring them back. We can’t undo what was done…

But now more than ever, I have to wonder: what did they die for? What would they all say if they could speak to us now? Have we honored them? Have we lived our lives with the attitude that all of those who died in some way died to protect?

In the aftermath of 9/11 the world witnessed tragedy on an epic scale, but we also witnessed beauty. The beauty of a phoenix rising from the ashes, of a world rising from pain. We had been shaken to the core, and rather than lashing out, the every day people in our lives reached out, we took hands and we cried together, we mourned together, we sang together. On that one faithful and fateful day, we were all American.

Moreover, we were all people.

That’s all, just scared, normal, fragile mortal people. For once the world wasn’t really looking at skin colours or symbols, not in those first early days. The fear and hatred bounced back and came later, and fools were we to welcome it back in. But in the direct aftermath, when the dust was still choking the air and the newsreels were still running on loop…when we couldn’t see through the tears in our eyes and we hadn’t yet really gotten around to finding someone to blame…we were all just people.

No, we can’t roll back the clock, we can’t stop them from getting on those planes,  and the world must move on. But in moving on, we must not forget that one brief moment when we were all just people…especially now

We had a choice those 16 years ago, there were two paths open to us. And I can’t help but think that in our everlasting thirst for vengeance…we have choosen poorly.

The world is becoming dark and frightening again. And as the clouds descend and the storms come, remember to  reach out and touch someone’s hand, wipe someone’s tears…

Live for them.

For all of them.

For the dead of Orlando, for those lost to the wars, for those who have been devoured by our ongoing and irrational fear…

Live for the ones who got on those planes…because if you don’t live your life to honor ‘angels’ then you have just as well as forgotten them…

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